her nasturtiums in that abandoned room of the warehouse in Paternoster
Row. "Old stock!" She could hear the very tones of Mr. Fawcus' voice.
And the sunlight on the golden cross of St. Paul's. It flashed upon her
inner eye more vividly than all the sunlight of the last twenty years
put together. A sudden pity seized her for the two old people who had
fostered her and from whom she had been so abruptly snatched. She saw
Mr. Fawcus with his big bandana handkerchief wiping away the tears
and waving his farewell from Dover Quay. How little she had understood
what it cost them to lose her! How gayly she had set out for Paris!
She ought when she was older to have visited them. It was wrong of her
grandmother to forbid all intercourse. Suppose she should be given the
guardianship of Geoffrey's little daughter, should she try to keep her
away from her mother? Mary tried to think that she would not, although
it was hard to be charitable about Geoffrey's wife. When he was killed
early in 1915, it surely ought not to have been impossible for his
wife to forgive. She had written to her so anxiously. Perhaps it had
been a mistake to inclose another check. A woman like that might have
supposed that she was trying to buy her. Still, to send back the check
torn in half, that surely was not justifiable after so many years.
She had not suggested that the little girl should be handed over to
herself entirely. She had only asked for a few months every year. Would
Geoffrey really have wished that his mother should be debarred from
helping her granddaughter? Had it really been Geoffrey replying the
other evening through the medium of _la planchette_? _Mary must go to
her grandmother._ Nobody except herself knew anything about Geoffrey's
little girl, and she herself had certainly not guided the pencil.
It was all very well for skeptics to say that one guided the pencil
unconsciously. Anything could be explained by auto-suggestion; but it
was not reasonable to explain the inexplicable by something every bit
as inexplicable. If it was auto-suggestion, why had she never succeeded
in getting a communication from Richard's spirit. If ever anybody
desired with all her heart and soul to speak with one dead, she desired
to speak with Richard. Yet he was silent. With all the will she had to
believe that he would come to her out of that immense world of death,
she had never received any message that could possibly be ascribed to
him. How hard she had often tried to twist those unintelligible scrawls
into words of hope and assurance from Richard! If auto-suggestion could
have done it, surely auto-suggestion would have done it. All theories
about the world of spirits were no doubt inadequate; but it seemed
natural to suppose that year by year the dead moved farther and farther
away from the earth, and therefore that Richard was already beyond her
reach. Geoffrey, on the other hand, died comparatively a short time
ago. Moreover, without being ridiculous one might imagine that the
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