Brushing her hair and changing her gown need not have made her hot, but
when she had finished dressing, her face was flushed and she sat down
trembling. She had slept but little the past night, but more serious
than lack of sleep was her new sense of shame. Of a sudden to-day in the
classroom she found herself asking what the girls would think if they
knew that she had a black mother, that she had eaten with her, performed
for her myriad services? What would they think if she told of her black
sister who for years had paid her way to school? The white world's
phantoms were clouding her spirit, turning her affectionate gratitude
into shrinking fear. They were standing between her and a past that she
loved. And as the black shadows followed her to her work so she found
them back in her room. She dreaded to look toward the door.
The trees without beckoned, and walking to the open window she looked
across the street. The familiar scene brought calmness and resolution.
She would tell Dick everything. No matter how difficult or humiliating
it might be, it would be better to tell him herself than to try, as she
had tried last night, to relate her story to some one else. And she must
share her secret. She could not stay another night in this house without
the comfort of self-revelation. Otherwise the shadows would drive her to
sickness and despair. Dick loved her, and love carried with it sympathy
and compassion. For the first time her heart warmed at the thought of
his protecting affection; and with her resolution firmly taken she
walked steadily, head erect, through the doorway out of her room.
It was a gay dinner-table. Mrs. Pickens, who had been constrained in her
manner toward Hertha at breakfast, dropped her reserve for the time
being and entered into Dick's raillery. Miss Wood was in good humor, and
Dick was bubbling over with entertaining stories. He was interesting,
too, in describing the country through which he had passed, and made
vivid to them the small town up-state with its shaded streets, its
growing shops, its dingy hotel and execrable service. The young
commercial traveler had become very discriminating in regard to rooms
and meals.
"Most of the waiters," he explained, "know only about ten words of
English nowadays. You're lucky if you strike one who knows twenty. Once
in a while I'd get a darky and you bet I was glad! Sambo's the boy for
me! Serves your meals all right and sense enough to laugh at your jokes.
We always got along fine."
He did not look at Hertha as he said this, but he hoped that she
received it in the spirit of good-will in which it was given. He was
friends to-night with all the world.
They lingered long over the meal, and when at length they rose, Dick
declaring that he could eat no more, the long twilight was almost over.
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