“With time, as his wife, you might love him.” Facing her, now, folding
his arms, he leaned back against the mantel at his far end of the room.
“I know that I’ve seemed odiously to belittle and misunderstand you, and
I am ashamed, Eppie--more ashamed than you can guess; but, in another
way, it wasn’t so belittling, either. I thought you very wise and
courageous. I thought that you had determined to take the real thing
that life offered you and to turn your back, for once and for all,
on--on unreal things.” He stopped at that, as though to let it have its
full drop, and Eppie, her eyes still fixed on him from her distant
chair, made no answer and no sign of dissent.
As he spoke a queer, effervescent blitheness had come to him, a light
indifference to his own cruelty; and the hateful callousness of his
state gave him a pause of wonder and interest. However, he couldn’t help
it; it was the reaction, no doubt, from the deep disgust of his
abasement, and it helped him, as nothing else would have done,
thoroughly to accomplish his task.
“He can give you all the things you need,” he went on, echoing poor
Grainger’s _naïf_ summing up of his own advantages. “He has any amount
of money, and a very big future before him; and then, really above all,
you do care for him so much. You see the same things in life. You
believe in the same things; want the same things. If you would take him
he would never fail you in anything.”
Still her heavy silence was unbroken. He waited in vain for a sign from
her, and in the silence the vibration of her dumb agony seemed to reach
him, so that, with all the callousness, he had to conquer an impulse to
go to her and see if she wept. But when he said, “I wish you would take
him, Eppie,” and she at last answered him, there were no tears in her
voice.
“I will never take him.”
“Don’t say that,” he replied. “One changes.”
“Is that a taunt?”
“Not a taunt--a reminder.”
She rose and came to him, walking down the long room, past the somber
illuminations of the windows, straight to him. They stood face to face,
bathed in the unearthly light. All their deep antagonism was there
between them, almost a hatred, and the love that swords clashed over.
“You do not believe that of me,” she said.
He was ready and unfaltering, and was able to smile at her, a bright,
odd smile. “I believe it of any one.”
It was love that eyed him--love more stern, more relentless in its
silence than if she had spoken it, and never had she been so near as
when, sending her clarion of open warfare across the abyss, she said, “I
will never change--to you.”
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