“Luckily I am here to use his empty head to advantage. I wheedled Lady
Carston, too,--the bad influence Macdougall had on church-going. Lady
Carston’s one idea, Gavan, is the keeping of the Sabbath. Altogether it
was an excellent morning’s work.” Eppie was cheerful and triumphant. She
was eating from a plate on her knees and drinking milk out of a little
silver cup. “Do you think me a tiresome, managing busybody, Gavan?” She
smiled down at him, and her lashes catching the sunlight, an odd, misty
glitter half veiled her eyes. “You look,” she added, “as you used to
look when you were a little boy. The years collapsed just then.”
He was conscious that, under her sudden glance, he had, indeed, looked
shy. It was not her light question, but the strange depth of her
half-closed eyes.
“I find a great deal of the old Eppie in you: I remember that you used
to want to bully the village people for their good.”
“I’m still a bully, I think, but a more discreet one. Won’t you have
some milk, Gavan? You used to love milk when you were a little boy. Have
you outgrown that?”
“Not at all. I should still love some; but don’t rob yourself.”
“There ‘s heaps here. I’ve no spare glass. Do you mind?” She held out to
him the silver cup, turning its untouched edge to him, something
maternal in the gesture, in the down-looking of her sun-dazed eyes.
He felt himself foolishly flushing while he drank the milk; and when,
really seized by a silly childish shyness, he protested that he wanted
no more, she placidly, with an emphasizing of her air of sweet,
comprehending authority, said, “Oh, but you must; it holds almost
nothing.”
For the second time that day, as he obediently took from her hand the
innocent little cup, Gavan had the unreasoning impulse of tears.
The sunny afternoon was silent. Overhead, the sky had its chalice look,
clear, benignant, brimmed with light. The general, the lolling dogs,
were part of the background, with the heather and the wood of larches,
the finely falling sprays delicately blurred upon the sky.
It was again something sweet, sweet, simple and profound, that brought
again that pang of presage and of pain. But the pain was like a joy, and
the tears like tears of happiness in the sunny stillness, where her firm
and gentle hand gave him milk in a silver cup.
The actual physical sensation of a rising saltness was an alarm signal
that, with a swift reversal of mental wheels, brought a revulsion of
consciousness. He saw himself threatened once more by nature’s
enchantments: wily nature, luring one always back to life with looks
from comrade eyes, touches from comrade fingers, pastoral drinks all
seeming innocence, and embracing sunlight. Wily Circe. With a long
breath, the mirage was seen as mirage and the moment’s dangerous
blossoming withered as if dust had been strewn over it.
VI
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