The Shield of LoveFarjeon, B. L. (Benjamin Leopold)
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The Shield of Love
Farjeon, B. L. (Benjamin Leopold)
English fiction -- 19th century
She shivered inwardly at the insidious tenderness he threw into his
voice, but she was at the same time careful to conceal this feeling.
She was in his power; her whole future was in his hands, and with it
the future of her beloved Clair. She had no other friend; she could
not think of another being in the world whom she could ask for help at
this critical juncture. It seemed as if the very bread she and her
child ate from this day forth might depend upon him who had brought
ruin upon them.
"Yes," he continued, "I will not desert you. A single word from your
lips, and your misfortune will become a blessing."
"Is nothing left, sir?" she asked. "Have I really lost everything?"
"You are cruel to make me repeat what I have said, what I have
endeavored to make clear to you. You have not only lost everything,
but are responsible for obligations it is, I am afraid, out of your
power to discharge. Mrs. Grantham, will you listen to me?"
"I have listened patiently, sir. Have you any other misfortunes to
make clear to me?"
"None, I am thankful to say. You know all; there is nothing to add to
the sad news I have been compelled to impart. Think only of yourself
and your dear child."
"I am thinking of her, sir."
"She is not strong; she has not been accustomed to endure poverty. Can
we not save her from its stings? Is it not a duty?"
"To me, sir, a sacred duty, if I can see a way."
"Let me show you the way," he said eagerly. "Dear Mrs. Grantham, my
feelings are unchanged. Even in your maiden days I loved you, but
stifled my love and kept it buried in my breast when I saw that
another had taken the place it was the wish of my heart to occupy. You
gave to another the love for which I yearned, and I looked on and
suffered in silence. Is not my devotion worthy of a reward? It is in
your power to bestow it; it is in your power to save dear Clair from a
life of misery. I renew the offer I made you. Promise to become my
wife, and the grievous loss you have sustained need not give you a
moment's anxiety."
The artificial modulation of his tones, his elaborate actions, and his
evident desire to impress her with a sense of the nobility of his
offer, filled her with a kind of loathing for him. It was as though he
held out an iron chain, and warned her that if she refused to be bound
she was condemning her child to poverty and despair. But agonizing as
was this reflection, she could not speak the words he wished to hear;
she felt that she _must_ have time to think.
"What you have told me," she said, "is so unexpected, I was so little
prepared for it, that it would not be fair to answer you immediately.
My mind is confused; pray do not press me; in a little while I shall
be calmer, and then----"
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