Belle laughed. "I knew you'd say that. Personally I didn't see it
coming. After we'd left Oxford I began to think that Nicholas had only
been flirting with me. He wrote such curious, aloof little letters and
very few of them. They might have been written by an epigramist to his
maiden aunt; but last night,--well, last night made everything
different, and this afternoon we've had a long talk. Of course I wish we
were going to be openly and properly engaged, but I'm very happy and so
I don't grumble."
"As the future Countess of Shropshire, I wonder whether you will ever
give a little back room in your beautiful English place to the young
American lawyer and his wife!"
"Betty, I swear to you that I don't care a dime about all that now,--I
mean the title and the place. It's just Nicholas that I want--Nicholas,
and no one else. I wouldn't care if he were what he calls a 'bounder' or
a 'townee.' My dear, I'm mad about him--just mad."
"Isn't everything as right as Truth?" said Betty. "The more I see Peter
the more I love him. He's,--well, he's a man, and he's mine. He's mine
for another reason, and that's because he's always going to be a boy,
and I'm here to look after him. He'll need me. And I must have him need
me, too, because I need to be needed. Do you understand?"
Belle nodded. "You're the born mother, my dear," she said, "whereas,
I'm,--well, not. I want love--just love. I'll give everything I've got
in the world for that--everything. Love and excitement and movement,--to
go from place to place meeting new people, hearing new languages, seeing
new types, living bigly and broadly, being consulted by a man who's
brilliant and far-seeing,--_that's_ what I need. That's _my_ idea of
life. Ah-h!" She shot out a deep breath and threw her chin up as though
to challenge argument.
Betty watched her with admiration. She had never looked so unusual, so
exhilarated, so fine. All about her there was the very essence of youth
and courage and health. There was a glow in her white skin that was the
mere reflection of the fire that was alight in her heart. Given
happiness this girl would burst into the most fragrant blossoming and
gleam among her sisters like a rose in a pansy bed. Given pain and
disillusion she had it in her to fling rules, observances, caution,
common sense and even self-respect to the four winds and go with all
possible speed to the devil.
"What would have happened to us both if we hadn't gone to Oxford?" asked
Betty, with an almost comical touch of gravity. "Think! I should be
doomed to be a little old maid, with nothing but an even smaller dog to
keep in order, and as for you----"
"I? Don't let's talk about it. I should have gone top-pace through
several years and then, with thirty looming ahead, married a nice safe
man with oodles of money who would spend his life following me round.
Thank Heaven, I shall never be the centre of that ghastly picture!"
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