But before he could reach his son the great big hurt boy crumpled and
fell in a heap at his feet.
XX
For three weeks Peter's bedroom was the one room in the house to which
the eyes of all the family were wholly turned. There, in the dark, he
lay a victim to an attack of brain fever. Never in a condition of great
danger, poor old Peter was ill and the Doctor, who, better than the
rest, knew that death has many doors through which life goes out, eyed
the specialist who had been called in with pathetic eagerness.
The little mother and Belle were joined at once by Betty, and the three
women sat very close together, speaking and even thinking in whispers
during the first two days. To the one whose first child he was and the
one who waited to be his wife, Peter meant everything good that life had
for them, and in their terror that he might be taken away their
imaginations ran ahead, as they always do in moments of such poignant
anxiety, and they were afraid to look out of the window in case they
should see Death, the black camel, kneeling at the gate.
While the shadow seemed to rest on his house, Dr. Guthrie did many
things. First of all he went over all the terrible words that Peter had
said to him that bad and unforgettable night. With great humbleness and
deep emotion he accepted them as the truth. He sat for hours at his desk
with his hands over his face and tears leaking through his fingers.
Metaphorically he placed his old hard-working, concentrated self in the
criminal stand and his new startled, humbled and ashamed self in the
Judge's seat and summed up his life as a father. It was very plain that
he had failed in his duty to his boys. He had made no great effort to
conquer that queer shyness which had affected him from the beginning. He
had allowed his children to grow up to regard him as Bluebeard. He had
thrown upon his wife's slight shoulders all the onus of the
responsibility for the human development of their characters, and
because she had succeeded while they were young he had, like a coward,
neglected to step in and take upon himself his obvious duty when they
had grown old enough to need more--much more--than the soft guiding hand
of a mother. He had allowed them to make an early start,--the girls, as
well as the boys,--without understanding the vital necessity of duty and
discipline which he alone could inspire in them, because no man or woman
in all the country, in any school or college, gave a single thought to
either. He had hidden behind a hundred weak and foolish excuses in order
to avoid the so-called difficulties of speaking manfully to these two
embryo men. He had permitted them to grow out of boyhood without giving
them the benefit of his own uninitiated struggles, or the simple
warnings and facts which take the glamour away from temptation and make
straight ways easy. He "took chances," and hoped that some one else
might by accident give them the facts of sex or that they would find
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