"Peter, Graham, Belle and my little Ethel," he said brokenly, "I'm going
to ask you all, on a day that means a great deal to your mother and to
me, and so to you, to forgive me for not having been all that I ought to
have been to you I know that I've failed in my duty as a father. You
have always been my most precious possessions and it is for you that
I've worked so hard and so closely, but because of all that I went
through as a child and because I never struggled as I ought to have done
to overcome a foolish shyness that has made me self-conscious, you and I
have never been friends--have never understood each other. I take all
the blame for whatever you have done that has made you suffer and of
which you are ashamed. Very humbly, I stand before you now and ask you,
as I asked Peter, here, in this room, to give me another chance. Let's
make a new beginning from to-day, with the knowledge that I love you
better than anything in the world. I want you all to meet me half-way in
future, to look upon me no longer as the shy, unsympathetic,
unapproachable man who, by accident, is your father, but as your closest
and most intimate friend whose best and dearest wish is to help you and
listen to your worries and give you all the advice in his power. I want
this room to be the place to which you'll always come with the certain
knowledge that you'll be welcomed by me with the greatest eagerness and
delight. Don't let there be anything from to-day onwards that you can't
tell me. Promise me that. I--I've told myself two or three times that
it's too late for me to be of any use to you--that having failed I could
never repair my mistake or ever hope to win your confidence and
friendship."
His voice broke so badly that he was unable to speak, and the
painfulness of this strange little scene was almost more than those
young people could bear. It hurt them enough to stand facing a man who
opened his soul for them to gaze into, especially when that man was
their father. It was dreadful to see him blinded by tears in the middle
of an appeal which they all realized called for such extreme courage and
strength of character to make.
They all wanted to do something to help him and force him out of a
humbleness that made them horribly self-conscious. It was Peter who did
it. With two strides he stood at the Doctor's side and put his arms
round his shoulder.
The Doctor looked up into the face of the great big, tender fellow,
whose eyes were eloquent, and smiled. Then he found his voice again and
forced himself to the bitter end of what he had determined to say.
"Something in the way you've all treated me since Peter has been ill,"
he said, "has given me hope. That's why I put myself in your hands, my
dears. Shall we make a new beginning? Will you take me into your
friendship? Will you all give me another chance?"
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