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She stood with her head thrown back, her throat showing, her eyes closed
as in prayer. Her face was as pale as the petals of the passion-flower
upon the wall. Gabriel, with lips twitching, paced to and fro like one
in physical anguish. A hand of ice seemed contracting about his heart.
Suddenly, as by some superhuman instinct, he fell down with a
half-muffled cry at the girl’s feet, caught her by the knees, and buried
his face in her dress.
“Joan, Joan.”
She still stood with eyes closed, her body quivering, her hands over her
heart.
“Joan, curse me, for God’s sake curse me!”
“No, no.”
“That I should have brought this upon you!”
“No, no.”
“Curse me.”
She slipped suddenly to her knees as though her soul failed her, wound
her arms about the man’s neck, and hid her face upon his shoulder. They
kneeled thus for some moments, wrapped in each other’s arms like two
children. Neither spoke. It was a merging of their common woe into one
deep flux of silent sympathy.
The fall of tears on her cheek roused Joan, like the touch of a child’s
hand bestirs a mother. She lifted her head, held the man at
arm’s-length, looked in his face with a great flash of womanly
tenderness.
“Gabriel.”
“Girl—”
“Weep not for me.”
“You shame me too utterly.”
“Ah no, do not think that of me. God knows, I shall help you by being
strong.”
She passed her hand over his forehead, smiled with an infinite
wistfulness, lifted up her mouth to his, and kissed him.
“Courage,” she said.
For the first time he looked in her eyes, steadily, yet with an
incredulous awe that was not of earth. Had Christ spoken He could not
have breathed a diviner love.
“You shame me,” was all he said.
“No, no.”
“What am I, that you should treat me thus?”
“Ah, is it so strange?”
“It is marvellous, beyond belief.”
She put his hands from her very gently, rose up, and stood at her full
height, looking out towards the sea. The blood had risen again from her
heart; her lips were no longer tremulous; her eyes shone more bright
with hope. Gabriel watched her, holding close under the pine-tree so
that he stood in shadow, while Joan breathed in the sun. The scene was
figurative to him of her finer beauty of soul.
“Gabriel,” she said at last, turning her head so that he saw her pure,
strong profile and then the sunlight in her eyes.
“I am listening.”
“Can you believe me? but I had half prayed for this.”
“Joan!”
“It is the truth.”
He left the shadows of the tree and stood again at the girl’s side. His
fingers touched Joan’s. Standing hand in hand, they looked out over the
sea at the sun sinking in a whorl of lambent fire.
“I am no longer afraid.”
“Nor I, save for your sake.”
“Ah, Gabriel, what is sacrifice but love transfigured?”
The clouds were paling in the west; a glamour of light still poured
upward into the heavens.
“Had I been less a fool,” he said, “I could have saved all this. Thank
God, I am no longer clay, to be thumbed by circumstance!”
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