The Son of His Father; vol. 3/3Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Son of His Father; vol. 3/3
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Fathers and sons -- Fiction
natural--sequence of events--when all of a sudden his heart seemed to
turn that other corner under the trees, and, with a rush of misery, it
came back to him that Elly, Elly, was and could be his Elly no more.
He never knew very well how it was that he spent the rest of this long
afternoon and evening. He walked about, looking vaguely for some trace
of his father, or Montressor, or Joe, but saw nothing of them, as may be
supposed; and then he went from shop to shop of the outfitters, where
emigrants are provided with all they want on their voyage: and finally
went back to his rooms, and, in the blank of his misery, went to bed,
not knowing what to do.
And thus, in the changed world, in the darkened life, the evening and
the morning made the first day.
CHAPTER XIV.
THE VALLEY OF HUMILIATION.
Another followed; and then another morning after that.
Night and day were much the same to John in this dreadful pause of
existence. Sometimes he dozed in the day, in utter weariness and
sickness of heart, after coming in from an unsuccessful search for some
trace of any one of those three men who had so changed the course of his
life; often lay awake through the slow and terrible night, in which all
manner of miserable thoughts came crowding about him like vultures, so
that he did not know which was most insupportable, the night or the day.
The wondering looks of the people in the house, the shaking of the head
of his landlady, Mrs. Short, who saw all her fears realised, and made
no doubt whatever that John had been tempted, and had fallen, and had
been dismissed by his employers with obliquy, did not affect him, for he
was unconscious of them. He sought no comfort from his mother, who was
the only confidant he could have had--indeed, he sought comfort nowhere.
He did not recognise the possibility of any succour existing for him at
all.
Again he had slept late on the morning of the third day. By that means
he seemed to cheat time of one little bit of its tedious, soul-consuming
power. The day was a little less long when he thus managed to steal an
hour from it, and this habit, which the troubled and sorrowful share
with the idle and dissipated, easily steals upon those who are
unemployed and unhappy. He felt that he hated the light, as so many have
done before him. To turn his face to the wall, to close his eyes upon
it, to push as far from him as possible the new day, in which there
could be nothing but evil, was a little gain in the dearth of all
comfort. John was roused with a start by some one knocking at his door,
to bid him make haste and come downstairs, where two ladies were
waiting for him.
‘Missis wants to know if she’s to send up breakfast for them?’ the
serving maiden inquired.
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