Miss von Schwertfeger fixed her eyes on Lilly's face in an aggrieved
stare.
"My dear child, if you weren't a stupid thing, who has to sin in order
to mature, you would have a better understanding of what goes on inside
a person like myself. For the present be satisfied that you are out of
danger."
In a gush of gratitude Lilly threw herself on Miss von Schwertfeger, and
kissed her face and hands; and Miss von Schwertfeger no longer repulsed
her. She stroked her hair, and spoke to her as to a child.
Kneeling at her feet Lilly confessed. She told how her relations with
Walter had developed insensibly, how they had been old friends, and how
he had really been the author of her happiness.
"Happiness?" Miss von Schwertfeger drawled, and drew in the air through
the right corner of her mouth, causing a sound like a whistle.
Lilly started, looked at her, and understood.
The question burned in her brain: "Am I better than I should have been
had I allowed the colonel to drag me here without marrying me?"
Eleven months had passed since that night when he courted her.
She put her arms about Miss von Schwertfeger, and cried, cried, cried.
It was so good to know there was a sisterly, no, a motherly, person in
whose dress she could bury her tearful face. She had not experienced
such easement since the day a certain knife had been waved over her
head.
The affair with Von Prell, of course, could not go on. He and Lilly must
not meet even once again. Miss von Schwertfeger demanded it, and Lilly
acquiesced without a word of protest.
If only she had not had her mission!
"What mission?" asked Miss von Schwertfeger.
Lilly told of the holy task she had to perform in his life; how her love
had awakened him to the realisation of a loftier, purer life; how she
had to answer with every drop of blood in her body for his rising to
better things and entering upon a noble, beneficent field of activity.
It was Miss von Schwertfeger's turn to be astonished. She listened, and
looked at Lilly with great, doubting eyes, then got up, and paced the
room agitatedly, muttering:
"Incredible! Incredible!"
When Lilly asked her what was incredible, she kissed her on her
forehead, and said:
"You poor thing!"
"Why?"
"Because you will suffer much in life."
Thereupon it was agreed that Miss von Schwertfeger should speak with him
once again, and the price of her silence was to be the breaking off of
all relations between him and Lilly. They must not take their rides
together, either.
Lilly begged for only one thing, to be allowed to write him a farewell
letter. She thought she owed this to him so that he should not harbour
doubts of her and his future.
Then the two women parted.
Released, redeemed, born into a new life, Lilly walked upstairs,
forgetting every precaution. But, thank goodness! the colonel was
snoring.
The clock struck four, and the shuffling of the stablemen already
resounded in the courtyard.
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