The bare branches swayed in the wind, the ivy on the railing fluttered,
even the arched stalks of the rose bushes, the heads of which the
gardener had secured under heaps of earth, trembled and quivered this
way and that. The world was writhing in the clutch of winter. The only
still things were the leaves lying on the thin coating of snow which
covered the ground; but the leaves were dead already.
What now?
If _that_ could happen, then the very earth beneath her feet gave way;
then there was no hope, no rising to loftier heights, no strength, and
no fidelity; then you might as well throw yourself down beside the
leaves out there and die.
But before that--what?
Dishes rattled behind her. No one had rung for the maid, but she had
come of her own accord and was helping Ferdinand clear the table.
Lilly thought of Katie and that other creature in whose arms he had made
mock of her and her faith in him.
She dragged her torpid legs up the steps to the rooms where she felt at
home. In passing the colonel's door, she caught the sound of his tread
as he fairly ran to and fro.
She experienced not the faintest fear of him.
"Let him run, if he wants to," she thought.
When in her own room, she heard him give orders to have the carriage
brought around immediately.
"For all I care, he may stay here."
She stepped out on the balcony.
The iciness benumbing her neck crept into her arms and spread down to
her very finger tips.
There sat Walter, as always in his free time after dinner, completely
absorbed in the great encyclopedia of agriculture, so full of zeal for
study that every now and then he would pass his hand through his hair in
a preoccupied way and without looking up--he hadn't so much time to
spare, Heavens! no!--he would flick the ashes from his cigarette into a
flower pot.
In the face of this infamous game, which he played for the sole purpose
of deceiving her, Lilly was seized by a wild, infuriated desire to
denounce him, which completely robbed her of her senses. A stinging and
pricking lifted her paralysed arms. The iciness gave way to a painful
fever, which throbbed in her temples, and hung a red curtain before her
eyes.
She saw nothing, heard nothing.
She rushed down the staircase, tore open the garden door, leapt down the
stone steps, and ran at full speed straight across the lawn to the
lodge.
Whether someone spied her or not she did not care.
The door to his room banged against the wall.
She had not stopped to knock.
A rank, pungent smell, as in a menagerie, assailed her nostrils.
There he was, sitting at the window. He jumped to his feet. The grey
daylight glided over his head.
"He's had his hair cut brush fashion again," thought Lilly. "The
dissolute life he's living demands it; the elegance of the dives demands
it."
"Good Lord!" he said, crumbling his burning cigarette between his
fingers, "a pretty howdy-do!"
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