On the contrary, the delicate milky whiteness of her cheeks, which
before had been a golden brown, lent her a new, soft charm. The great,
narrow, long-lashed eyes with the heavily drooping lids--those
improbable Lilly eyes--now had a weary, languishing brilliance, as if
they veiled all the painful riddles of the universe. Moreover, the last
year had given back to her the slim, regal figure of her maiden days and
taken away the womanly peacefulness it had acquired at Lischnitz. No
wonder that many a head turned after her and many an appreciative,
envious glance was sent askance at her companion, who was considerably
shorter than she.
Mr. Dehnicke was aware of all this, and being a staid, respectable
business man, and not wishing to be the object of gossip, he preferred
to stay indoors with her.
About the middle of February she received an invitation by mail from Mr.
Kellermann, whom she had not seen for several months.
GREAT CARNIVAL
KELLERMANN STUDIO
Magic Lantern Show, Flirtation, Opportunity for Crimes
Passionels, Cream Kisses, and other Attractions
That seemed like distraction enough, and Mr. Dehnicke, who, it happened,
had also been invited, was so energetic in his persuasions that he
finally conquered her timidity and induced her to go.
But when the day for the carnival came Lilly was seized by a great dread
of it, and at the last moment felt like withdrawing from her engagement.
She saw herself running the gauntlet of a gaping crowd of sardonic
sneerers, who whispered the story of her rise and fall behind her back.
She saw herself neglected and avoided, the object of derisive side
glances. She passed through all the tortures of the déclassées, who must
drag through life with the mark of the sinner caught in the act branded
on their brows.
She chose the most beautiful of her Dresden dresses, which in the two
years had grown to be the very height of fashion. It was a white Empire
gown embroidered with gold vines. She arranged a narrow bracelet in her
hair like a diadem, and loosely laid over her head an oriental veil shot
with threads of gold. In case of need it would serve to conceal the
bareness of her bosom. When she had completed her toilet, she seemed to
herself so repulsive and conspicuous that this alone was sufficient
ground for not showing herself.
She did not venture to cherish a faint hope until her friend came to
fetch her. He saw her, and held on to the door knob, uttering a slight
cry of astonishment.
"Am I all right?" she asked with a diffident laugh, which entreated
encouragement.
Instead of replying he ran up and down the room breathing heavily and
choking over inarticulate words--a mute language which Lilly immediately
understood.
While sitting beside him in the coupé, she succumbed to another attack
of dread.
"You will stay right next to me, won't you?" she implored. "You won't
leave me, and you won't let a stranger speak to me, will you?"
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