"I went to you that time," he continued, "because a dispute had broken
out among some of my younger men, of which you were the subject. The
matter promised to take a dangerous turn and it had to be adjusted. I
expected to find a pert, coquettish little shop girl, and I found--well,
I found--_you_. Now you will ask what I mean by 'you,' because you
yourself cannot possibly be aware of your good points, or, rather, your
potentialities--everything in you is still in process of becoming. I am
what they call a connoisseur in women, my child, and behind that which
you are to-day, I see that which you will be some future day, _if_--this
'if' is the main thing--if the opportunity is afforded you for proper
development. You might go to ruin among your old books. In case you have
the courage to entrust your fate to my hands, I should like to assume
the care of directing your life into fitting channels."
That sounded composed and paternal.
Lilly felt herself breathing easier, experienced a little relaxing
hopefulness. She ventured to raise her look once more, and beyond the
gold and silver dazzle she saw a pair of brilliant glassy eyes, which
had lost their sharpness and were fairly forcing themselves on her with
a mighty, greedy questioning. The shuddering and stiffening came upon
her anew. She sat there motionless with paralysed will, while she
thought:
"Of what avail? He will do whatever he wants with me at any rate."
He went on.
"I own a beautiful old estate, Lischnitz, in West Prussia, near the
Vistula, to which my duties prevent me from going frequently. My
household there is managed by a middle-aged aristocratic lady, Miss von
Schwertfeger--but her name's immaterial. If you were to go there she
would receive you with open arms, I promise you that, and you would have
an opportunity to develop under the most favourable conditions into the
woman I already foresee in you. Your problems for the time being would
be solved, and I should benefit by finding my home, when I visit it,
lighted by a ray of youth and beauty."
He had risen and in his eagerness to persuade began to pace about her
with short see-sawing steps. Each time he moved there was a clinking and
jingling like delicate dance music played on small bells. Finally all
she heard was this metallic ringing, and she no longer understood what
he said.
She pressed against the back of her chair with an indistinct feeling
that he was tying her with cords, packing her up, and carrying her off
to some spot where no rescuer could hear her cries of distress. She knew
she would not offer the least resistance, so completely was she in his
power.
"Look at me," he said.
She wanted to obey, certainly--oh, she was so obedient! But she could
not.
He put a finger under her chin and shoved her head back. She kept her
eyes almost closed and saw nothing except the red border of his military
coat.
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