The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A RomanceCorelli, Marie
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The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
Corelli, Marie
Devil -- Fiction; Didactic fiction; Great Britain -- Fiction; Millionaires -- Fiction; Religious fiction
The sunset-glory began to fade from the landscape as the little boat
glided on over the tranquil water, and a great shadow was on my mind,
like the shadow of that outer darkness which would soon be night. Again
I asked myself--Was there no happiness possible in all the world? Just
then the Angelus chimed from a little chapel on the shore, and as it
rang, a memory stirred in my brain moving me well-nigh to tears. Mavis
Clare was happy!--Mavis, with her frank fearless eyes, sweet face and
bright nature,--Mavis, wearing her crown of Fame as simply as a child
might wear a wreath of may-blossom,--she, with a merely moderate share
of fortune which even in its slight proportion was only due to her own
hard incessant work,--she was happy. And I,--with my millions,--was
wretched! How was it? Why was it? What had I done? I had lived as my
compeers lived,--I had followed the lead of all society,--I had feasted
my friends and effectually 'snubbed' my foes,--I had comported myself
exactly as others of my wealth comport themselves,--and I had married a
woman whom most men, looking upon once, would have been proud to win.
Nevertheless there seemed to be a curse upon me. What had I missed out
of life? I knew,--but was ashamed to own it, because I had previously
scorned what I called the dream-nothings of mere sentiment. And now I
had to acknowledge the paramount importance of those 'dream-nothings'
out of which all true living must come. I had to realize that my
marriage was nothing but the mere mating of the male and female
animal,--a coarse bodily union, and no more;--that all the finer and
deeper emotions which make a holy thing of human wedlock, were
lacking,--the mutual respect, the trusting sympathy,--the lovely
confidence of mind with mind,--the subtle inner spiritual bond which no
science can analyse, and which is so much closer and stronger than the
material, and knits immortal souls together when bodies decay--these
things had no existence, and never would exist between my wife and me.
Thus, as far as I was concerned, there was a strange blankness in the
world,--I was thrust back upon myself for comfort and found none. What
should I do with my life, I wondered drearily! Win fame,--true
fame,--after all? With Sibyl's witch-eyes mocking my efforts?--never!
If I had ever had any gifts of creative thought within me, _she_ would
have killed it!
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