The Southern Literary Messenger, Volume I., 1834-35Various
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The Southern Literary Messenger, Volume I., 1834-35
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American literature -- 19th century -- Periodicals
"That which I foresaw has come to pass: I am no longer to you what I
once was, when you could clothe this poor form and this homely face
with a beauty they did not possess; you would wed me still, it is
true; but I am proud, Eugene, and cannot stoop to gratitude where I
once had love. I am not so unjust as to blame you; the change was
natural, was inevitable. I should have steeled myself more against it;
but I am now resigned; we must part; you love Julie--that too is
natural--and _she_ loves you; ah! what also more probable in the
course of events? Julie loves you, not yet, perhaps, so much as I did,
but then she has not known you as I have, and she, whose whole life
has been triumph, cannot feel the gratitude I felt at fancying myself
loved; but this will come; God grant it! Farewell, then, for ever,
dear Eugene; I leave you when you no longer want me; you are now
independent of Lucille; wherever you go, a thousand hereafter can
supply my place;--farewell!"
She rose, as she said this, to leave the room; but St. Amand seizing
her hand, which she in vain endeavored to withdraw from his clasp,
poured forth incoherently, passionately, his reproaches on himself,
his eloquent persuasions against her resolution.
"I confess," said he, "that I have been allured for a moment; I
confess that Julie's beauty made me less sensible to your stronger,
your holier, oh! far, far holier title to my love! But forgive me,
dearest Lucille; already I return to you, to all I once felt for you;
make me not curse the blessing of sight that I owe to you. You must
not leave me; never can we two part; try me, only try me, and if ever,
hereafter, my heart {61} wander from you, _then_, Lucille, leave me to
my remorse!"
Even at that moment Lucille did not yield; she felt that his prayer
was but the enthusiasm of the hour; she felt that there was a virtue
in her pride; that to leave him was a duty to herself. In vain he
pleaded; in vain were his embraces, his prayers; in vain he reminded
her of their plighted troth, of her aged parents, whose happiness had
become wrapped in her union with him; "How, even were it as you
wrongly believe, how in honor to them can I desert you, can I wed
another?"
"Trust that, trust all to me," answered Lucille; "your honor shall be
my care, none shall blame _you_; only do not let your marriage with
Julie be celebrated here before their eyes; that is all I ask, all
they can expect. God bless you! do not fancy I shall be unhappy, for
whatever happiness the world gives you, shall I not have contributed
to bestow it?--and with that thought, I am above compassion."
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