This, like other appeals of the same nature, fell on stony ground. Paul
simply did not understand it. In all the years of his work among the
peasants it is possible that some well-spring of conventional charity
had been dried up--scorched in the glare of burning injustice. He was
not at this moment in a mood to consider the only excuse that Steinmetz
seemed to be able to urge.
The sun had set long ago. The short twilight lay over the snow-covered
land with a chill hopelessness. Steinmetz looked at his watch. They had
been together an hour--one of those hours that count as years in a life
time. He had to peer into the face of the watch in order to see the
hands. The room was almost dark, and no servant ever came to it, unless
summoned.
Paul was looking down at his companion, as if waiting to hear the time.
At great moments we are suddenly brought face to face with the limits of
human nature. It is at such moments that we find that we are not gods,
but only men. We can only feel to a certain extent, only suffer up to a
certain point.
"We must dress for dinner," said Steinmetz. "Afterward--well, afterward
we shall see."
"Yes," answered Paul. And he did not go.
The two men stood looking at each other for a moment. They had passed
through much together--danger, excitement, and now they were dabbling in
sorrow. It would appear that this same sorrow runs like a river across
the road of our life. Some of us find the ford and plash through the
shallows--shallow ourselves--while others flounder into deep water.
These are they who look right on to the greater events, and fail to note
the trivial details of each little step. Paul was wading through the
deep water, and this good friend of his was not inclined to stand upon
the bank. It is while passing through this river that Fortune sends some
of us a friend, who is ever afterward different from all others.
Paul stood looking down at the broad, heavy face of the man who loved
him like a father. It was not easy for him to speak. He seemed to be
making an effort.
"I do not want you to think," he said at last, "that it is as bad as it
might have been. It might have been worse--much worse--had I not made a
mistake in regard to my own feelings when I married her. I will try and
do the right thing by her. Only at present there does not seem to be
much left, except you."
Steinmetz looked up with his quaintly resigned smile.
"Ah, yes," he said, "I am there always."
CHAPTER XXXIX
HUSBAND AND WIFE
Karl Steinmetz had shown the depth of his knowledge of men and women
when he commented on that power of facing danger with an unruffled
countenance which he was pleased to attribute to English ladies above
all women. During the evening he had full opportunity of verifying his
own observations.
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