In a few minutes she was mounting the steep sodden path to the
Kruysabel. The sun was coming out, and all around the earth steamed.
The hunting shelter, intact and not noticeably weathered, had yet an air
of neglect. Grass grew where grass should not, the windows were dim with
cobweb and fly-smut. The door stuck, and inside the air was warm and
moldy. The photos stared at her, the guardian spirit of the place, as
she moved from room to room, tried handles, dusted, rubbed, and shook
things. The seats invited her, the mirrors showed her active
restlessness. At last she stood still, and some spasm of acute
realization seemed to gather and descend on her, and she wrung her
hands. “What will become of it all?” she cried aloud. It, undefined,
being the old happy easy life of pre-war. A great sob broke from her,
and at its sound in that lonely place of memories, she pulled herself
together, put away her things, and looked up. As she trod the reeking
moss and gluey mud on the way home, she seemed to be treading something
down into the earth, as, alas, many another was to do, like her,
throwing in vain a little mold of forgetfulness on the face of
recollection that, buried, yet refused to die.
* * * * *
Day succeeded day, mostly wet, almost always noisy. The interminable
offensive dragged to its sodden end. Unit succeeded unit, and then
French succeeded English, and even the heroes of Verdun, Champagne, the
Argonne had no good word to say of their new sector. Gas they knew, and
shells and machine-gun fire, but to be Drowned was the last refinement
of a war that had already surpassed all notions of possible evil, all
tales of Sedan, all histories of old-time carnage.
All this made little or no impression upon Madeleine. The old life had
slipped back upon her like a glove. German bombs dropped in or about the
pasture, spoiled her sleep, made her apprehensive of fire and damage.
Otherwise she merely learned from the talk around the kitchen stove that
the war was just what she had always felt it to be--a crowning
imbecility of insupportable grown-up children. All that one wanted was
to be left tranquil. There was always plenty to do, and, if one were
only left alone, money to be made. Economics, politics, sociology were
beyond her, and had they not been so, they would have weighed with her
no more than they ever have done with agricultural, self-contained,
homekeeping three-quarters of France. That Germany was anxious for her
young industries, England for her old ones, France for her language and
racial existence, that governments grow naturally corrupt as milk gets
sour, by mere effluxion of time, that captains of industry must be
ruthless or perish, all this did not sway her mind. All one wanted was
to be left tranquil. Tranquillity being denied, she did the best she
could.
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