"You leave Simon be," she cried fiercely,--"let him be! I’ve had enough
o’ your worry, without plaguin’ him an’ all. You get back to your dad,
and don’t come interfering again. You came between me and my lad, but
you shan’t meddle wi’ my man! You mean well enough, I don’t doubt, but
you’re nobbut a meddler, all the same. It never does to go shoving
kindnesses at folk who keep on saying nay. If you force ’em, you do ’em
more harm than good in the long run, by a deal. D’you think I want
Geordie coming back in rags, as like a tramp on t’roads as a couple o’
peas? D’you think I want a drunken do-nowt loafing about t’spot,--a
thief, maybe, or happen summat worse? What sort o’ food and drink would
yon be to Blindbeck, d’you think? Eliza’s gitten enough on her tongue,
without the likes o’ that! Nay, the lad as went was a limb, but he was
bonny and smart, and Eliza’ll always think of him like yon. She’ll
always think in her heart as he was the better o’ Jim, for all she talks
so loud. But if he come back to shame us, it’d rob me even o’ that. I
couldn’t abide it!" she finished vehemently. "It’d be worse than death.
I’d rather the sea took him afore ever he reached home!"
She stopped with an indrawn breath, and the door, creaking abruptly,
showed that her weight was heavy on the latch. May stood still in the
yard, as still as the shadow that had once again turned to ancient
stone. The silence that had fallen between them seemed to push her
away, to drive them so far apart that never again would they be able to
speak. At last, in that terrible outpouring, May had discovered the
real barrier to her desire. There were pride and generosity in the way,
but there was also something which she could not fight. The monstrous,
lifelong obsession of Eliza had slopped even the natural road to a
mother’s heart.
Fear came over her, a more terrible fear than had taken her on the
sands. In the quiet spot that should have been homely because of the
moving light and the dumb beasts, she had a hint of something not quite
sane. Things that had no place in the life of the soil seemed suddenly
to have forced a passage in. She peered into the darkness of Sarah’s
mind, as her bodily eyes sought for her hidden face.
She was startled into action again by the old dog’s nose thrust kindly
into her hand. He had listened to the urgent voices with constantly
pricked ears, knowing by instinct that somebody suffered and was afraid.
Now he came to May, begging her to take charge of her soul, lest he,
too, whose only trust was in Man, should suffer fear. She laid her hand
for a moment on the warmth of his head, dropping her gaze to meet his
upturned eyes. Instantly, however, as if he had brought her a further
message, she looked towards the bay, and saw the lamp in her father’s
window spring to life.
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