Yet all the time her mind had followed the man who had gone out, hearing
the thud of his feet on the sandy ground, and seeing the bulk of him
huge on the sea-wall. The sound of his feet would be sharper on the
beach, but when he got to the sand it would be muffled as if with
cloths. When he came to the channel he would stand and hail, and the
light from the ’Ship’ would lie on the water like a road....
But never to-night or in all time would he get as far as the bank.
Suddenly, as he walked, he would hear a whisper out of the west. It
would mean nothing to him at first, nor the wind feeling along his
cheek. He would only say to himself that the trees were astir on the
far point. Then he would hear a noise like a coming shower, and lift up
his face to meet the first of the rain. But the sound that came after
would come running along the sand, until every rib was vibrating its
message to his feet. When he knew what it was, he would stand perfectly
still, and then he would spring in the air and start to run. But, run
as he might, he would never reach the shore, or stand on the gold road
that would take him over to May. The white tide-horses were swifter far
than he; their unshod hoofs would outrun his heavy boots. The sweeping
advance-water would suddenly hem him in, swirling before his feet and
shooting behind his back. He would run this way and that in the dark,
but it would be no use. He would run and run, but it would never be any
use....
From complete detachment she passed gradually to a comforting sense of
quittance and ease. It was as if a burden that she had carried all her
life had been cut away, so that she could lift up her head and look in
front of her and breathe free. The sickening jealousy was gone, the
gnawing pain at her heart, the fierce up-swelling of decimating rage,
the long, narrowed-down brooding of helpless hate. Never again would
she be able to see herself as the poor relation fawning at Eliza’s
skirts. The thing had been done at last which paid Eliza in full.
She had, as she came back within range of feeling again, one last, great
moment of exultant pride. She seemed to herself actually to grow in
size, to tower in the low room as the shadow of the home-comer had
towered over ceiling and wall. Into the hands of this oppressed and
poverty-stricken woman there had suddenly been given the heady power of
life and death, and the stimulant of it was like wine in her thin blood,
making her heart steady as a firm-blown forge. She felt strong enough
in that moment to send every child of Eliza’s out to its death in the
maw of the Night Wave. She felt an epic figure poised on the edge of
the world, heroic, tremendous, above all laws. Indeed, she seemed, as
it were, to be the very Finger of God itself....
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