"Nay, then, Sarah, you’re wrong, Sarah, you’re dead wrong! I’d be glad
to see him just for himself, I would that! He’s been nowt but a trouble
and disappointment all his life, but I’d be glad to see him, all the
same." She put out the plump fingers which Sarah loathed, and drew them
caressingly over the baby face. "I can’t do wi’ failures," she added
brokenly; "they make me wild; and Jim was the only failure Blindbeck
ever hatched. But for all that he was the bonniest baby of the lot, and
there’s times I never remember nowt but that. There’s days I just ache
for the sound of his voice, and fair break my heart to think he’ll never
come back."
There was no doubting the sincerity of her grief, and the big sobs
shaking their way through her shook Sarah, too. Her own lips trembled,
and her eyes filled; her hands quivered on the arms of the chair. She
could not see the pitiful fingers stroking the child’s face, but she who
had offered that worship herself needed little help to guess. She had
her revenge in full as she sat and listened to the passion that never
dies, forcing its way upward even through Eliza’s leathern soul; but the
revenge was a two-edged sword that wounded herself as well. All the
generosity in her that was still alive and kind would have sprung to the
surface instantly if the story had been true. She would have groped her
way to Eliza’s side in an effort to console, and perhaps the lifelong
enemies might have drawn together for once. But the story was not true,
and she had nothing to offer and no right of any sort to speak. She
could only sit where she was and suffer and shake, hating herself more
in this moment of absolute conquest than she had ever hated Eliza in her
darkest hour.
But, as a matter of fact, Eliza’s grief would have passed before she
could even have tottered to her feet. Her own lips were still shaking
when Eliza’s had hardened again; her own eyes were still wet when
Eliza’s were dry with hate. The passion which for a brief moment had
been selfless and sincere was turned once again into the channel of
jealous rage. She swung round so swiftly that her sleeve caught the
little frame, and it fell forward unnoticed with a sharp tinkle of
broken glass.
"There’s summat wrong about it all," she cried venomously, "and I’ll not
rest till I find out what it is! What’s Geordie mean by landing up so
smart, and leaving our Jim a thousand mile behind? It’s a nasty sort o’
trick, if it’s nothing worse, seeing how they were thick as thieves as
lads. I’ll tell you what it is, Sarah, and you may swallow it as you
can,--if Geordie’s gitten brass, it’s because he’s robbed it off our
Jim! Like enough he’s put an end to him for it, the poor, honest
lad--knifed him ... finished him ... put him out o’ the road...!"
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