The Standard BearerCrockett, S. R. (Samuel Rutherford)
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The Standard Bearer
Crockett, S. R. (Samuel Rutherford)
Covenanters -- Fiction; Scotland -- History -- 17th century -- Fiction
She looked up at me with dry, brilliant eyes. There was nothing strange
about them save that the lids seemed swollen and unnaturally white.
“Quintin,” she made answer, smiling, “it was foolish from the first, was
it not, lad o’ my love? Did you ever say a sweet thing to me, like one
that comes courting a lass in the gloaming? _Say it now to me, will you
not?_ I would like to hear how it would have sounded.”
I was silent. I seemed to have no words to answer her with.
She laughed a little.
“I forgot. Pardon me, Quintin. You are in trouble to-day--deep trouble.
I should not add to it. It is I who should say loving things to you. But
then--then--you would care more for flouts and anger from her than for
all the naked sweetness of poor Jean Gemmell’s heart.”
And the very pitifulness of her voice drew a cry of anger out of my
breast. At the first sound of it she stopped and leaned back in my arms
to look into my face. Then she put up her hand very gently and patted me
tenderly on the cheek like one that comforts a fretful fractious child.
“I vex you,” she said, “you that have overmuch to vex you. But I shall
not vex you long. See,” she said, “there is the door. Yonder is my
father standing by it. He is looking at us under his hand. There is
Jonita, too, and your brother Hob. Shall we go and tell them that this
is all a mistake, that there is to be no more between us?--that we are
free--free, both of us--you to wed the Lady Mary, I to keep my tryst--to
keep my tryst--with Death!”
At the last words her voice sank to a whisper.
Something broke in her throat and seemed to choke her. She fell back in
my arms with her kerchief again to her mouth.
They saw us from the door, and Alexander-Jonita came flying towards us
like the wind over the short grass of the meadow.
Jean took her kerchief away, without looking at it this time. She lifted
her eyes to mine and smiled very sweetly.
“I am glad--glad,” she whispered; “do not be sorry, Quintin. But do just
this one thing for me, will you, lad--but only this one thing. Do not
tell them. Let us pretend. Would it be wrong, think you, to pretend a
little that you love me? You are a minister, and should know. But, if
you could--why, it would be so sweet. And then it would not be for long,
Quintin.”
She spoke coaxingly, and withal most tenderly.
“Jean, I do love you!” I cried.
And for the first time in my life I meant it. She seemed to be like my
sister Anna to me.
By this time, seeing Jonita coming, she had recovered herself somewhat
and taken my arm. At my words she pressed it a little, and smiled.
“Oh,” she said, “you need not begin yet. Only before them. I want them
to think that you love me a little, you see. Is it not small and foolish
of me?”
“But I do--I do truly love you, Jean,” I cried. “Did you ever know me to
tell a lie?”
She smiled again and nodded, like one who smiles at a child who has well
learned his lesson.
Alexander-Jonita came rushing up.
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