Great Britain -- History -- George IV, 1820-1830 -- Fiction; Love stories; Widows -- Fiction
“Pooh! You’re not of this century. You’re mediæval, quixotic! David,
man, high feelings are not worn nowadays. They have been put by, with
knighthood’s armour. Don’t forgive her then, lad. I am sure I see no
reason why you should.”
“Forgiveness!” echoed Sir David.
Ellinor had crept close to them once more. That bitter ring in David’s
voice smote her heart.
“Forgiveness!” he repeated. “Does he who remembers ever forgive? My
sister is ill and craves to return to her old home. Well, I recognise
her right to its hospitality and also to my courtesy as the dispenser of
it. More I cannot give her.”
“She’ll not ask for more!” interrupted the unconvinced simpler. “Eh, eh!
It is my fault, David: I might have known how it would be. I brought in
the first petticoat and there the mischief began.”
“Oh, father!”
The tears sprang to Ellinor’s eyes. Sir David turned round and seemed to
become again aware of her presence.
“No, no,” he said, “that is ungrateful.” He took her hand. “She brought
us sunshine,” he said.
But she missed from his pressure the tremulous touch of passion; she
missed from his eyes that flame she had shrunk from and that now her
heart would always hunger for. Pure kindness, mild sadness—what could
her enkindled soul make now of such gifts as these? With an inarticulate
sound she drew her fingers from his clasp; and, turning, fled downstairs
again and back to her room.
A taper was burning on her writing table, and in its small meek circle
of light a bowl of monthly roses displayed their innocent pink beauty.
The latticed casement was thrown open. In the square of sky a single
silver star pointed the illimitable distance. From the Herb-Garden below
rose gushes of aromatic airs, as, from some secret cloister by night the
voices of the dedicated rise and fall. Vaguely, in her seething misery,
she seemed to recognise the special essence of the new plant giving to
the cool night the sweetness accumulated during the long, hot hours of
the day.
She sat down on the narrow bed, folded her hands on her lap and stared
dully forth at the square of sky and the single star. Presently, almost
without her own consciousness, her bosom began to heave with long sighs
and tears to course down her cheeks. Where was now the strength, the
indifference to passing events which she boasted her long battle with
life had given her? Gone, gone at the first touch of passion! Throughout
a sordid marriage she had remained virgin of heart, she had kept the
virgin’s peace—and now?
Alternations of pride and despair broke over her like waves, salt and
bitter as her own tears. How happy they had been! And the unknown fiend,
jealousy, had urged her to break the still current of that sweet,
restful half-unwitting happiness of their life all three together—a
current flowing, she had told herself with conviction, to a full tide of
unimaginable bliss.
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