Great Britain -- History -- George IV, 1820-1830 -- Fiction; Love stories; Widows -- Fiction
“Oh, why have you wasted your life?” she cried. “Why have you turned
your back on all the good things God gives man? Why is your home
desolate, your hearth vacant, your heart solitary? David, David, this
house should never have been empty thus; there should be children round
your knee! What have you done with your life?”
The tears brimmed over and ran down her cheeks. Then her strange passion
fell away from her, and she stood ashamed. He had started first and put
up his hand as if to thrust back her words. There was a long silence.
When he broke it, it was as one who speaks upon the second thought, with
the cold control that follows an unadmitted emotion.
“For me such things will never be.”
“Why, why?” The cry seemed forced from her.
He waved his hand with the gesture of the most complete renunciation.
“Never,” he repeated.
The word, she felt, was final. She gazed at him almost angrily; then
tears, caused now by mortification and confusion, rose irresistibly
again. To conceal them she turned to the window, pulled open the queer
little casement and, leaning on her elbows, looked out in silence.
Below her lay the Herb-Garden, with its variegated autumn burden of
berries, red or purple or sinister orange; its groups of fantastically
shaped leaves, turning to tints not usually known in this sober clime;
here a patch, violet, nearly black; and there a streak of tropical
scarlet; elsewhere again mauve, verdigris-green—colours, indeed, that
village folk said, “no Christian plants ought to produce.” The scents of
them, as pungent yet different in decay as ever in their blossom time,
rose to her nostrils mixed sweet and bitter, over-dulcet, poisonous or
aromatic-wholesome.
The sight and the smell were full of subtle reminiscence. She felt her
throbbing heart calm down, her hot cheeks grow cool. In some mysterious
way, now as in her childhood, the Herb-Garden seemed to draw her and to
speak to her; to promise and withhold some fairy secret, she knew not
whether for joy or sorrow, but yet incomparably sweet. As she gazed
forth she noticed the quaint figure of her father come into view from
behind a clump of bushes. He was attended by Barnaby, who, under the
direction of his master’s gesture, culled leaves and flowers. Circling
round the pair, Belphegor, the black cat, could be seen gravely watching
the proceedings. There was something peaceful and world-detached in the
silent scene, and it brought back some of that sense of rest and
home-return which she had found so blessed the previous night.
All at once she felt close to her the shadowing presence of her cousin,
and the next moment his touch upon her shoulder sent her blood leaping.
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