"What will he think? what will he think?" she kept saying to herself as
she longed to lay her hands in his, and to tell him that it was no fault
of hers, but an accident that Captain Rolph had met her during her walk.
But she could not tell him--she dared not. It was like a confession
that she cared for his opinion more than for that of anybody in the
world. It would be unmaidenly, and degrading, and strange; and there
was nothing for her to do but assume anger and annoyance, and treat
Oldroyd as if he had been playing the part of spy.
A very weak conclusion, no doubt, but it was the only one at which, in
her misery, she arrived.
The sun was shining now from a pure, blue sky, the birds were darting
beneath the trees, where the long spider webs hung, strung with jewels,
that flashed and glowed as they were passing fast away. There was a
delicious aroma, too, in the soft breeze that floated from among the
gloomy pines; but to those who went on, side by side, it was as if the
morning had become overcast; all was stormy and grey, and life was in
future to be one long course of desolation and despair. Nature was at
her best, and all was beautiful; but Lucy could not see a ray of hope in
the far-off future. Philip Oldroyd could see a gloomy, wasted life--the
life of a man who had trusted and believed; but to find that the woman
was weak and vain as the rest of her sex.
They had relapsed into silence, and were going on pretty swiftly towards
The Firs, but their proceedings did not seem to either to be at all
strange. Lucy's destination was, of course, home, and Oldroyd appeared
resolved to accompany her; why, he knew not, and it did not trouble him
after the first few minutes, seeming quite natural that he should take
her to task, and he determined, as a punishment, to see her safely back.
She did not deserve it, of that she was sure, but there was something
comfortable and satisfactory in being thus silently scolded by one much
wiser and stronger than herself.
Oldroyd wished to speak. He had a good deal to say--so he felt, but not
a word escaped him till they reached the steep path that ran up to the
gates at The Firs, when he drew rein, and made way for Lucy to pass.
"Good-bye," he said.
"Good-bye," faltered Lucy, looking at him wistfully.
He looked down into her eyes from where he sat, with his very heart
ready to leap from his breast towards her; but, as he gazed, he saw
again the sunny sandy road with the velvety grass, and golden-bloomed
furze on either side; the long, sloping bank with its columnar pines,
and the dark background of sombre green, while in front was Lucy, the
girl in whom he had so believed, walking with Rolph; and then all was
bitterness and cloud once more.
"He was marked," thought Oldroyd; "there was a patch of plaister on his
forehead. Hang it all! could he have shot that man?"
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account