He sat in a metal chair behind the table. His head was lifted, looking
toward the port in the outer wall that showed the black sky slashed
across with the mighty fires of the Galaxy. The hard light showed him
clearly. He was an old man. The years of his life had been many and
unkind. They had shaped his face as though from iron, gouging the
lines deep, hammering the ridges hard, driving out all traces of youth
and hope and whatever laughter there might have been to forge a mask
of bitter anger, and reproach, and in the end, despair. It seemed to
Trehearne that he could read a whole life history in that face, caught
forever in the moment of death, when surely the man was crying out upon
whatever gods he worshipped, demanding _Why?_
Edri began suddenly to laugh. "Orthis. It's Orthis. He's been here
waiting for us to come in...."
Quorn raised a hand in its heavy gauntlet and struck Edri's helmet so
that Trehearne could hear the ringing in his own audio. "Shut up. Damn
you, Edri. Shut up." Edri stopped laughing. After a moment he said,
"For a moment I thought...."
Trehearne muttered, "So did I." Here in the airless utter cold, death
held no decay, no change. But there was more to it than the lack of
physical corruption. The fire in this man had burned so deep that even
death could not erase its scars. Where the lamp-beams caught them, his
open eyes seemed still to glow with the unforgotten embers.
For a long time the three men stood, not moving, grouped in the
doorway. Trehearne said once, "I think he wanted whoever found him to
look inside that box, there under his hand." Orthis' life-work, the
future of the Galaxy, held in a little box. They knew it. But still
they were not quite ready to go in and take away from Orthis the thing
that he had kept so long. And it was strange, Trehearne thought, that
in this moment when their emotions ought to be at the highest pitch,
when they should be feeling most poignantly the weight of all the
centuries of sacrifice and struggle that had led them here, and what
it was all going to mean, they were too tired to feel anything very
much, only the edges of awe and an instinctive reluctance to approach
the dead. He wanted to get away from this funeral ship. Finally he
wanted it so much that he went in and tried to move Orthis' hand from
off the box. The arm was frozen rigid as a steel bar, and he gave it
up, working the box carefully out from under the icy fingers, in horror
lest they break.
The others had come slowly in beside him. The box was not locked. He
lifted up the lid, and the lamplight showed a notebook bound in cloth.
On top of it lay a loose sheet of paper with a few angular lines of
writing. Edri picked it up, very clumsily in his armored hands, and
held it to the light, reading aloud in a queer flat voice. "I have
clung to life this much longer...."
Edri stopped, and coughed, and started over, and Trehearne thought that
Orthis listened.
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