He found the doctor and had himself patched up, and after that he
was busy checking lading. He was dead for sleep, and it seemed an
eternity until, toward midnight, the cargo was all aboard and the
hatches locked. The _Saarga_ lifted into the star-shot sky, and the
acceleration built and built to the thrust of the humming generators.
Trehearne told Rohan and Perri that he was too played out to talk about
what had happened, and tumbled into his bunk. He was almost instantly
asleep--and almost as instantly awake again.
There was a screaming in the ship....
They found Torin lying beside the well that led up from the hold.
He had made it that far. His skin was already darkened with the
subcutaneous hemorrhage, his body twisted and writhing, his face almost
unrecognizable. And he screamed and would not stop.
Trehearne held him and watched him die.
It seemed to take a long, long time. It was not a clean death. It was
dissolution. Trehearne remembered his own torment and there was nothing
he could do. The others watched also with sick white faces. In the end
it was the guard who went to fetch a cloth to wrap the body in, and
there were tears on his cheeks.
Trehearne laid Torin on the sheet. His flesh was not hard any more. He
was no longer straight and well made. He was not even a dead boy. He
was a rag, a shapelessness, an obscenity. It crossed Trehearne's mind
how nearly he had come to dying that same death.
He got up. He returned to his cabin, stripped and scrubbed himself in
a kind of frenzy. He kicked his sodden garments into the corridor for
someone else to deal with. He could not touch them again. And all the
time he heard Torin's voice crying, "Surely I am strong enough to go
out and see the stars!"
They came a little later and told Trehearne that they had found where
Torin had hidden himself under the wrappings of a bale, to be carried
aboard with the cargo.
"It wasn't your fault," they told him. "There was no way you could have
seen the boy."
Trehearne was not comforted.
They buried Torin in deep space, to drift forever among the Suns of
Hercules. And Trehearne thought of a hut, of a man and a woman who were
waiting for their son to come home. He wished that Torin had listened
to the wisdom of his father.
The _Saarga_ tramped her way onward among the worlds of the Cluster.
Time and events gave Trehearne other things to think about. He
was a starman now, tested and hardened, a functioning part of his
environment. His horizons were boundless and the stars had not lost
their lustre. But somehow, even so, the first fine flush of glory was
gone.
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