United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction
It was a day like yesterday, yet to Baynell all the world had changed.
No day could ever be the same. Life itself was made up of depreciated
values. The blow had fallen so heavily, so suddenly, so conclusively.
All, all was dead! It was much with a sense of decorous observance, of
reverential respect, that he made haste to bury his slain hopes, his
foolish dream, his ardent expectations out of sight, never to rise
again. It was unwise to linger here, but not because of his own
interest, he said to himself. It would not unfit him for his duty. This
was all that was left to him. His feeling for this had never swerved. It
was unaffected--all apart from what had come and gone. But his presence
could but be distasteful to her. And any moment might reveal his state
of feeling to others--to Judge Roscoe, who would resent it if it should
suggest an unwelcome urgency. And the neighbors--he had not been
unnoting of the glances of surprise that had already greeted that
radiant figure in white and red yesterday. While he winced a little
from the realization that his sudden departure would illustrate the sad
plight of a love-lorn suitor, disregarded and cast aside,--for he had a
thousand keen susceptibilities to pride,--and he would fain the tongues
of gossips should forbear this sacred theme, it were best that he should
go, and that shortly.
When he appeared at the breakfast-table, pale and a trifle haggard, he
gave no other token of his long vigil and the radical change that he had
suffered in his life and prospects. He was a man of theory. He valued
his self-respect. He insisted on his self-control. He had exerted all
his capacities, summoned all the resources of his courage; and this was
the more needed because of the unconventional, informal footing on which
he stood with the family. To say farewell and ride away might seem easy
enough, but this was like quitting a home with affectionate domestic
claims. When he said that he thought he must return to camp to-day, the
twin "ladies" laid down knife and fork to enter their protest. They
lifted their voices in plaintive entreaty, and the deaf-mute looked at
Baynell with limpid eyes and a quivering lip. But Uncle Ephraim,
bringing in the waffles, had a vague suggestion of "It's time, too," in
the wag of his head. Judge Roscoe doubtless experienced a vivid
realization of the advantage to accrue to the young soldier in the
attic, whose security in his hiding-place was so endangered by the
presence of the Federal officer, for he was very guarded even in his
first cordial phrases, and thenceforward said no more than policy
required. The twin "ladies," however, continued to loudly urge that the
captain might find lizards in his cot; and asked if his tent had a
floor; and warned him that frogs were everywhere now. "Tree-toads,
o-o-oh! with injer-rubber feet," cried Geraldine, shudderingly, "that
blow out and climb!"
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