“That’s because you’re so good and charitable; they’re not fit for you
to touch. I can see that now. In a roomful of men that are thinking of
nothing but noise and diversion, such things are all very well; but for
your hands to touch, no, no--I see it all now.”
There was in Dolff’s voice a tone of touching regret. He felt the
sacrifice he was making, yet he was ready to lay it at the feet of his
lady. Between amusement and a certain pleasure in his devotion Janet’s
countenance shone.
“I can’t allow you,” she said, “to make such a sacrifice. You must have
something to amuse you in the evenings; and your mother likes to hear
you sing. Never mind if they are a little--well! some of them are quite
nice--they are not all vulgar. I will show you the ones I like best.”
“Will you be so very, very kind to me, Miss Summerhayes? It is out of
the goodness of your heart, I know. Yes, my mother likes it, and she has
good reason. I used always to be going out of nights getting into bad
company. I can tell _you_, Miss Janet, though I could not tell anyone
else. Poor mother was anxious about me, of course. But now I have no
wish to go out at night. The Strand may be in Timbuctoo for anything I
care. I never want to spend an evening away from home. So long as you
will go on playing them--the best of them, don’t you know--you will make
both mother and me happy.”
“Well,” said Janet, “it is very easily done: and there are some others
that I think would suit your voice. We might go over them together.”
Dolff turned quickly round as if he would have seized her hand, but
overawed by the imposing vision of Janet, who met his eager look with a
slight elevation of her head and withdrawal from his side, drew back
again a little shyly. But he was beaming with happiness and gratitude.
“If you will do that for me, Miss Summerhayes,” he said, “I can’t tell
you how happy you will make me.” He paused a moment, and then gave vent
to a laugh. “Gussy and Meredith may think they’re very grand,” he said;
“they look down upon me as if I was a clown at the circus; but just you
stand by me, Miss Summerhayes,” he said, with a little break in his
voice; “by Jove, we’ll put them on their mettle!”
Dolff was so delighted with the future joys which he saw before him
that he smote his manly thigh in exultation. His face was crimsoned with
pleasure and satisfaction, shining behind the faint shadows thrown upon
it by his colorless hair and light mustache. He was happy and he was
proud, doubly repaid for the genuine humility which had prompted his
sacrifice. Janet had made him feel his coarseness and imperfection. It
was with all the greater exultation that he felt himself mounting up
with her into a higher place.
“You must remember, Mr. Harwood,” said Janet, “that Mr. Meredith has a
beautiful voice. There are not many people that have a voice like that.”
“Do you really think so?” said Dolff, somewhat crestfallen. “He thinks a
deal of it himself, I know.”
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