It was surely so; the young people’s feet had trodden too hard on old
Ulrika Dillner, and the young people’s laughter had rung too arrogantly
in her ears; for there came over her suddenly an irresistible longing
for a married woman’s titles and dignities. At last she said “yes” to
the evil Sintram’s long courtship, followed him to Fors as his wife, and
was parted from the old friends at Berga, the dear old work, and the old
cares for daily bread.
It was a match which went quickly and gayly. Sintram offered himself at
Christmas, and in February they were married. That year Anna Stjärnhök
was living in Captain Uggla’s home. She was a good substitute for old
Ulrika, and the latter could draw back without compunction, and take to
herself married honors.
Without compunction, but not without regret. It was not a pleasant place
she had come to; the big, empty rooms were filled with dreadful terrors.
As soon as it was dark she began to tremble and to be afraid. She almost
died of homesickness.
The long Sunday afternoons were the hardest of all. They never came to
an end, neither they nor the long succession of torturing thoughts which
travelled through her brain.
So it happened one day in March, when Sintram had not come home from
church to dinner, that she went into the drawing-room, on the second
floor, and placed herself at the piano. It was her last consolation.
The old piano, with a flute-player and shepherdess painted on the white
cover, was her own, come to her from her parents’ home. To it she could
tell her troubles; it understood her.
But is it not both pitiful and ridiculous? Do you know what she is
playing? Only a polka, and she who is so heart-broken!
She does not know anything else. Before her fingers stiffened round
broom and carving-knife she had learned this one polka. It sticks in her
fingers; but she does not know any other piece,—no funeral march, no
impassioned sonata, not even a wailing ballad,—only the polka.
She plays it whenever she has anything to confide to the old piano. She
plays it both when she feels like weeping and like smiling. When she was
married she played it, and when for the first time she had come to her
own home, and also now.
The old strings understand her: she is unhappy, unhappy.
A traveller passing by and hearing the polka ring could well believe
that Sintram was having a ball for neighbors and friends, it sounds so
gay. It is such a brave and glad melody. With it, in the old days, she
has played carelessness in and hunger out at Berga; when they heard it
every one must up and dance. It burst the fetters of rheumatism about the
joints, and lured pensioners of eighty years on to the floor. The whole
world would gladly dance to that polka, it sounds so gay—but old Ulrika
weeps. Sintram has sulky, morose servants about him, and savage animals.
She longs for friendly faces and smiling mouths. It is this despairing
longing which the lively polka shall interpret.
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