He pursued them out into the hall, but no farther. When the last stranger
had left the house, he went back into the drawing-room and bolted the
door after him. Then he dragged together a mattress and a couple of
pillows, laid himself down on them, went to sleep in the midst of all the
havoc, and never woke till the next day.
When Gösta got home, he heard that Marianne wished to speak to him. That
was just what he wanted. He had been wondering how he could get a word
with her.
When he came into the dim room where she lay, he had to stand a moment at
the door. He could not see where she was.
“Stay where you are, Gösta,” Marianne said to him. “It may be dangerous
to come near me.”
But Gösta had come up the stairs in two bounds, trembling with eagerness
and longing. What did he care for the contagion? He wished to have the
bliss of seeing her.
For she was so beautiful, his beloved! No one had such soft hair, such an
open, radiant brow. Her whole face was a symphony of exquisite lines.
He thought of her eyebrows, sharply and clearly drawn like the
honey-markings on a lily, and of the bold curve of her nose, and of her
lips, as softly turned as rolling waves, and of her cheek’s long oval and
her chin’s perfect shape.
And he thought of the rosy hue of her skin, of the magical effect of her
coal-black eyebrows with her light hair, and of her blue irises swimming
in clear white, and of the light in her eyes.
She was beautiful, his beloved! He thought of the warm heart which
she hid under a proud exterior. She had strength for devotion and
self-sacrifice concealed under that fine skin and her proud words. It was
bliss to see her.
He had rushed up the stairs in two bounds, and she thought that he would
stop at the door. He stormed through the room and fell on his knees at
the head of her bed.
But he meant to see her, to kiss her, and to bid her farewell.
He loved her. He would certainly never cease to love her, but his heart
was used to being trampled on. Oh, where should he find her, that rose
without support or roots, which he could take and call his own? He
might not keep even her whom he had found disowned and half dead at the
roadside.
When should his love raise its voice in a song so loud and clear that he
should hear no dissonance through it? When should his palace of happiness
be built on a ground for which no other heart longed restlessly and with
regret?
He thought how he would bid her farewell.
“There is great sorrow in your home,” he would say. “My heart is torn
at the thought of it. You must go home and give your father his reason
again. Your mother lives in continual danger of death. You must go home,
my beloved.”
These were the words he had on his lips, but they were never spoken.
He fell on his knees at the head of her bed, and he took her face between
his hands and kissed her; but then he could not speak. His heart began to
beat so fiercely, as if it would burst his breast.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account