Martha's face glowed in spite of herself. The recollection of Gilbert's
embrace in the dusky glen came to her, already for the thousandth time,
but warmer, sweeter at each recurrence. She felt that her hand trembled
in that of the spinster, as they sat knee to knee, and that a tender dew
was creeping into her eyes; leaning forward, she laid her face a moment
on her friend's shoulder, and whispered,--
“It is all very new and strange, Betsy; but I am happy.”
Miss Lavender did not answer immediately. With her hand on Martha's
soft, smooth hair, she was occupied in twisting her arm so that the
sleeve might catch and conceal two troublesome tears which were at that
moment trickling down her nose. Besides, she was not at all sure of her
voice, until something like a dry crust of bread in her throat had been
forcibly swallowed down.
Martha, however, presently lifted her head with a firm, courageous
expression, though the rosy flush still suffused her cheeks. “I'm not as
independent as people think,” she said, “for I couldn't help myself when
the time came, and I seem to belong to him, ever since.”
“Ever since. Of course you do!” remarked Miss Betsy, with her head
down and her hands busy at her high comb and thin twist of hair; “every
woman, savin' and exceptin' myself, and no fault o' mine, must play Jill
to somebody's Jack; it's man's way and the Lord's way, but worked out
with a mighty variety, though I say it, but why not, my eyes bein' as
good as anybody else's! Come now, you're lookin' again after your own
brave fashion; and so, you're sure o' your heart, Martha?”
“Betsy, my heart speaks once and for all,” said Martha, with kindling
eyes.
“Once and for all. I knowed it--and so the Lord help us! For here I
smell wagon-loads o' trouble; and if you weren't a girl to know her own
mind and stick to it, come weal, come woe, and he with a bull-dog's
jaw that'll never let go, and I mean no runnin' of him down, but on the
contrary, quite the reverse, I'd say to both, git over it somehow for
it won't be, and no matter if no use, it's my dooty,--well, it's t'other
way, and I've got to give a lift where I can, and pull this way, and
shove that way, and hold back everybody, maybe, and fit things to
things, and unfit other things,--Good Lord, child, you've made an awful
job for _me!”_
Therewith Miss Betsy laughed, with a dry, crisp, cheerfulness which
quite covered up and concealed her forebodings. Nothing pleased her
better than to see realized in life her own views of what ought to be,
and the possibility of becoming one of the shaping and regulating powers
to that end stirred her nature to its highest and most joyous activity.
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