The Streets of Ascalon: Episodes in the Unfinished Career of Richard Quarren, Esqre.Chambers, Robert W. (Robert William)
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The Streets of Ascalon: Episodes in the Unfinished Career of Richard Quarren, Esqre.
Chambers, Robert W. (Robert William)
Fiction
Ledwith was now picking at his fingers, and Quarren saw that they were
dreadfully scarred and maltreated.
"You've always been kind to me," repeated Ledwith, his extinct eyes
fixed on space. "Other people would have halted at sight of me and gone
the other way--or passed by cutting me dead.... _You_ sat down beside
me."
"Am I anybody to refuse?"
But Ledwith only blinked nervously down at his book, presently fell to
twitching the uncut pages again.
"Poems," he said--"scarcely what you'd think I'd wish to read,
Quarren--poems of youth and love----"
"You're young, Ledwith--if you cared to help yourself----"
"Yes, if I cared--if I cared. In this book they all seem to care; youth
and happiness care; sorrow and years still care. Listen to this:
"'You who look forward through the shining tears
Of April's showers
Into the sunrise of the coming years
Golden with unborn flowers--
I who look backward where the sunset lowers
Counting November's hours!'
"But--I _don't_ care. I care no longer, Quarren."
"_That's_ losing your grip."
He raised his ashy visage: "I'm _trying_ to let go.... But it's
slow--very slow--with a little pleasure--hell's own pleasure--" He
turned his shoulder, fished something out of his pocket, and pulling
back his cuff, bent over. After a few moments he turned around, calmly:
"You've seen that on the stage I fancy."
"Otherwise, also."
"Quite likely. I've known a pretty woman--" He ended with a weary
gesture and dropped his head between his hands.
"Quarren," he said, "there's only one hurt left in it all. I have two
little children."
Quarren was silent.
"I suppose--it won't last--that hurt. They're with my mother. It was
agreed that they should remain with her.... But it's the only hurt I
feel at all now--except--rarely--when those damned June roses are in
bloom.... She wore them a good deal.... Quarren, I'm glad it came early
to me if it had to come.... Like yellow dogs unsuccessful men are the
fastest breeders. The man in permanent hard luck is always the most
prolific.... I'm glad there are no more children."
His sunken eyes fell to the book, and, thinking of his wife, he read
what was not written there--
"Her loveliness with shame and with surprise
Froze my swift speech; she turning on my face
The star-like sorrows of immortal eyes,
Spoke slowly.
"'I had great beauty; ask thou not my name;
No one can be more wise than destiny.
Many drew swords and died. Where'er I came
I brought calamity.'"
Quarren bit his lip and looked down at the sunlit brook dancing by under
the bridge in amber beauty.
Ledwith said musingly: "I don't know who it might have been if it had
not been Sprowl. It would have been _somebody_!... The decree has been
made absolute."
Quarren looked up.
"She's coming back here soon, now. I've had the place put in shape for
her."
After a silence Quarren rose and offered his hand.
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