She was playing with the tassels of her cashmere shawl absent-mindedly.
She could not explain what he did not understand, for she did not quite
fully understand herself beyond the fact that she was weary of Gnesen.
Life in Gnesen was a perpetual “You must not.” Being a rabbi’s daughter
more things were forbidden her than other girls. And the sudden
appearance of this elegantly dressed young man, with his intent eyes
upon her, his charming voice and pure German speech, made her conscious
of her circumscribed, narrow, drab existence with all its dinginess.
Strange feelings had been stirring in her the past year or two but they
only made her restless, without revealing to her, her inner desires.
Recently she had overheard her mother complain that her father was not
active enough to procure a husband for their daughter and the rabbi
murmured that “the good Lord would provide.” Miriam trembled at the
thought of marriage; a repulsive feeling came over her at the mere
mention of it. Marriage in Gnesen meant shaving off her beautiful
tresses and exchanging them for the detestable wig; it meant—she
shuddered—the drudgery of married life in poverty.
On the day she caught a glimpse of Albert at the well she went home with
her heart a-flutter. He was so unlike the young men in Gnesen. She had
not thought he belonged to her people but his dreamy, intent look had
not escaped her despite her seeming inattentiveness. No one had looked
at her in the manner of this stranger.
The evening of their first meeting she remained seated on the steps of
the porch, with her elbows on her knees, her pensive face between her
hands, musing; at times her breasts heaved, though she knew not why. Her
musing was interrupted by the approach of her father and Shloma, the
marriage-broker. The two were conversing in a low confidential tone. She
knew the topic of their conversation. The day before her father had been
telling her mother that Shloma was proposing a suitable young man for
Miriam. He mentioned his name. Miriam trembled. She had never spoken
with the young man but she knew him by sight, an ungainly young man.
When her father and the marriage-broker came near the porch Miriam went
into the house and retired. She spent a troubled night, with a heart
full of sorrow, and in the back of her brain was the picture of a young
man, slender, handsomely dressed, with light-brown hair, and eyes that
made her heart flutter.
When she beheld the stranger in the company of the count her heart stood
still for a second and the blood rushed to her face. To Miriam the day
of miracles had not yet passed. All her life she had heard of nothing
but miracles. Her dreams were not of knights and princes but of the
thousands of miracles God had performed for her people.
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