But his boasting was only to conceal the rankling in his breast. His
poetry or his prose had not been attacked, but his person. No, he was
not ashamed of his lineage—had he been devoid of a sense of humor he
would have even bragged of it—but after he had knelt at the font, after
he had gone more than half way to eradicate all differences between
himself and the Teutons, to be called a Jew! The iron entered his soul!
He swept all admonition aside, he would not listen to the counsel of his
friends. He was sharpening his arrows and dipping them in poison. His
enemies had miscalculated. They thought he could only write love songs.
He would make the dogs yelp before the expiring convulsion came! If
Teutonia resorted to calling names his ancestors had once pitched their
tents by the river Jordan, where calling names was an art.
Yet he hated the conflict. Why must they poison the honey in his heart?
Why must they force the sting? He wanted to flee from Germany—flee from
Germany and sing instead of “caw-caw” with the rest of the crows at
home.
IV.
In moments of revolt Albert always thought of leaving his fatherland
forever, but then his love for the land that gave him birth would
return—his innate fondness of the people about him would possess him,
the memories of his childhood on the banks of the Rhine would hold him
with chains of steel. He saw every fault in his compatriots, but the
faults seemed so glaring to him, and stirred him so deeply, because he
loved the people. But what people ever learned that it is its critics,
not its flatterers, who love it most sincerely?
He now found himself torn by a thousand conflicts. The censor was most
annoying—one could hardly give expression to one’s thoughts—and
disobedience meant damp prisons; the officials were arrogant; and the
land was full of Cant, Cult, and Culture. One could hardly breathe for
want of free air in Germany. In order to divert the people from the
tyranny of the nobles and Prussian officialdom the government encouraged
orthodoxy on one hand and heterodoxy on the other. “Let the children
play hard and forget other foolishness”, has always been the motto of
tyrannical governments. Hegelism, Schlegelism, Schellingism,
anti-Semitism—in short, anything to engage the public mind and coerce
it into submission to the tyrant’s will.
Albert thirsted for freedom. True, his biting irony often escaped the
scrutinising eye of the stupid censor—his thoughts emanated properly
censored from his brain, he jested—but he craved a moment’s respite.
For a time he had again retired to Hamburg and buried himself in work.
More songs, the publication of another book, planning new themes,
pondering new subjects, ever yearning for love.
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