He went to Potsdam, where he could see only “_Himmel und Soldaten_”.
Potsdam in those days was not the suburb of Berlin that it is today.
There was neither Subway nor Elevated nor speedy surface trains to carry
one from _Unter den Linden_ to Sans Souci in half an hour. Then it was a
considerable distance from the Prussian capital.
In Potsdam he found himself truly isolated, far from friends and
diversions. And he had so many plans for work; the completion of another
book; a humorous book, poems, essays, a political treatise. Then, again,
here he was safe from his ever threatening peril—of falling in love. He
had barely escaped a strong attachment for the wife of a friend, but her
intellect had saved him.
He remained at Potsdam nearly six months, working feverishly on new
poems.
After a time he found his self-imposed imprisonment irksome. The
atmosphere in Potsdam was not to his liking either. The presence of
soldiers—_die Menschenfresser_—everywhere, the artificiality of the
gardens of San Souci, where the firs were “masked as orange trees” and
“so unnatural that they were almost human”—everything was unbearable
here.
VIII.
He longed for rest. He wished to escape from the tumults of life, from
the tumults of his passions. He was a poet and wished to withdraw to
bucolic quietude, indulge in pleasant reveries, and pipe sweet melodies.
With the Bible and Homer as his only companions he left his family and
friends and went to the seashore. He would forget that he had been the
editor of a political journal; he would forget that he had fought the
Knights of Darkness; he would forget all the skirmishes in which he had
engaged since his early youth. He would lie on the shore, listen to the
sporting waves, and watch the clouds overhead.
He wandered along the beach in the twilight, solemn stillness all around
him, the vault of heaven “like a Gothic church”, the stars above burning
and flickering like countless lamps, the sweep of the waves “like the
reverberations of a great organ”. At last he thought he had found
himself. Again he wanted to emulate Goethe. He wanted no political
strife, no controversial essays, no more ironic flings. Action was not
his sphere, politics not his handiwork. He was no Ludwig Börne. He was
neither agitator nor reformer. He was a literary artist and must let
politics and philosophy alone. He must devote the rest of his life to
the observation of nature and to the interpretation of it—that was the
thirst of his soul.
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