M. Chauraux’s eyes moved from side to side, the tuft under his lower lip
projecting ominously.
“Is—is Mademoiselle Eugenia unwell?” Albert stammered.
M. Chauraux stepped forward and closed the door behind him.
“I can’t allow you to see Eugenie any more,” said the irate father
brusquely.
“But——”
“I want no arguments,” M. Chauraux resumed harshly. “And no
letters—they won’t be delivered to her—no more clandestine
rendezvous—you hear? I have had enough trouble with the police and want
no controversy with your banker uncle.”
And without further explanation he entered the house and slammed the
door.
Albert walked away, and reaching the gate turned around and looked at
the window but he only saw the reflection of the gray autumn sky in the
panes. He turned into the road and walked slowly back, with measured
steps, striking with his cane at the wilted leaves on the ground and at
the little stones by the wayside. Was there ever an Adam who was not
driven out of the Garden of Eden on some pretext or other, Albert mused
bitterly. What was his alleged sin? He could not tell, he could not
divine. What had suddenly turned M. Chauraux against him? Albert could
not account. He did not doubt Eugenie’s love. When he reached the grove
he paused. Every tree, every grassy spot was full of sweet memories. He
sighed. Sweet memories belong to old age, they are the white mile-stones
long passed and glistening in the distance. For the moment he felt aged,
an unfortunate Atlas, with the world of sorrows on his back——
“_Ich Unglücksel’ger Atlas! eine Welt,_
_Die ganze Welt der Schmerzen, muss ich tragen._”
Yes, he felt as if the whole world of sorrows was on his back, bearing
the unbearable, with a mortifying pain in his heart. He had insisted
upon either eternal bliss or endless misery—no compromise—and since
eternal bliss was denied him misery was the only alternative. He settled
upon a tree stump nearby lost in brooding reflections. He felt the
weight of life heavily upon him, it was crushing him. He could not think
of life without the sweetness of love, and that seemed to have been
taken away from him for ever. All events seem final to youth.
Time was passing. He could not tear himself away from this place, from
where he could see the straw-thatched roof in the midst of a cluster of
leafless trees. He could see the path daily trodden by her feet, the
underbrush that touched her skirt. How could he go on living without the
lustre of her eyes, without the clinging contact of her hands, without
the sweet warmth of her breath?
Before he realized darkness had come and the moon and stars appeared. He
had never seen the lights of heaven look down so sadly. Were they, too,
lovelorn?
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