‘I don’t believe it,’ said Isabel. ‘Pain is absolutely horrible.
I am a coward about it. I loathe and dread it altogether. Pain and
death--dying, rather--are awful to me. I love being alive and warm in
the blessed world. Dissolution is ghastly. For nothing would I give up
the joy of living. Oh, agony is too horrible. It’s not a lesson so much
as a punishment. Oh yes, a punishment, even if it’s for something one
has done hundreds of years ago, before one was in this body at all.’
‘Oh, what a dreadful idea!’ cried Gundred, shocked--‘a terrible
unchristian idea!’
‘Not at all,’ contributed Kingston; ‘what about the blind man in the
Temple? They asked Christ, “Did this man sin, or his parents, that he
was born blind?” How could he have sinned, then, before he was born,
except in some other existence? And Christ passed the question. If He
had disbelieved the theory of reincarnation, He was quite capable of
saying so very definitely. But He did not. By His silence He implicitly
admitted its truth, instead of challenging it, and devoted Himself to
the healing of the blind man.’
‘So wonderfully hot it is in here to-night,’ said Gundred.
‘I always feel,’ went on Isabel, ‘whenever I have a bad time, I am
paying for having enjoyed a too good one once in a wrong way. I expect
this broken leg of mine is the result of some selfish enjoyment of mine
in bygone days that I have forgotten. I had prepared this penalty for
myself in some mysterious way. For these things come automatically.
Touch a button--commit the tiniest, wee-est action, good or bad--and
years and years later, long after one has thought the action dead and
forgotten, something happens that shows it has been alive and steadily
working from the first hour to the last. Every littlest thing that
happens, pleasant or painful, can always be traced back, I expect, to
some cause, infinitely small and infinitely remote in the past, far,
far away beyond one’s recollection.’
‘Don’t you wonder,’ said Kingston, ‘what your actions of yesterday
and to-day will produce, and how long it will be before their effects
come down upon us? We shall probably have forgotten all about to-day
by then, but everything that we have done must bear some sort of fruit
some day or other, as you say. Your accident, for instance, will have
some effect upon us, and Nurse Molly must make some change in our
lives, sooner or later. If one cannot introduce a fresh action without
effect into our lives, still less can one introduce a fresh person.
Nurse Molly, with her marvellous fringe, will certainly bring some new
element with her into our lives. Now, what will it be, Isabel?’
Gundred saw a chance of being apposite.
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