taught me, that it is given to none to help his neighbour. Heaven and
Hell we make for ourselves, sometimes thinking Hell is Heaven, and
Heaven Hell, and no man can unseal our eyes or divert our course. So
you must go on your way, Kingston, and I on mine, neither seeing what
the other sees, strangers speaking unintelligible tongues. And it
will be long before you see what I have grown to see. And yet, in the
distance of time, that day will come, and you will be healed of all
your sorrows. But now, in this life of yours, for a test and a hell and
a torment will be the gratification of your longing when it comes. As a
trial and a condemnation of you and yours will it come, suddenly, with
disaster and despair, and the possessing of it will bring an anguish
bitterer than any that has gone before, for that is the unchanging law
of Desire. So I have brought you my message and my vain warning. The
force of your craving will bring about its own accomplishment, as,
sooner or later, all longing must bring about its accomplishment, and,
at the same time, its penalty. For a terrible moment you will see your
wish made flesh again, then all will pass away into darkness, and your
last state, through your own action, will be worse than the first.’
Kingston might, in saner circumstances, have smiled at denunciations
so fantastic. But the little old man, so quiet yet so earnest, had a
strange inexplicable dominance. He might not be believed, but he must
at any rate be respected. In all he said there was a deep passion of
earnestness, wistful and solemn, that gave the wizened little figure
in the outrageous European clothes something of the prophet’s tragic
grandeur. Now, his mission being discharged, the visitor arose to start
once more on his way. Kingston, in the feeling that he had no real part
in this earthly world, could make no effort to detain him. Nor would
any effort have succeeded. As he had come, abruptly, unannounced, so he
would go, abruptly, without mitigating gradation of farewells.
Gently he gave his hand to Kingston.
‘Very far apart are we two,’ he said, with a whimsical smile of his
dried lips. ‘We speak in different languages, across a barrier of
worlds. Yet one day we shall draw together, and our hearts be made
kin again. And now I must go. Say good-bye for me to your wife. Out
of our passions we make whips for our own backs, and there are other
passions besides that of love for others. She too, your wife, must pay
the penalty that she has appointed for herself, and out of her fancied
strength shall come the great weakness that shall impose on her, and
you, and all, that punishment which wisdom would have helped you to
avoid. None is good but he who does not know it.’
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