Ivor, however, replied that he hoped to be back at Ivescar in plenty
of time for tea, and that he would not trouble about food till then.
Gundred smiled and sighed to think how tragically he was mistaken.
Her feelings were firm and rigid. Long thought and long anxiety had
crystallized now into a mystic ecstasy of certainty. In the previous
weeks she had known sore vacillations and distresses. But now the
friendly Powers had made everything plain once more. Until this morning
she had felt a certain weakness and need of earthly counsel; as a sound
Evangelical Protestant, she had, of course, a proper pious horror of
the priesthood and the confessional; and yet there had been times when
she would have liked to pour forth her troubles to a fellow-creature.
Had she consulted a doctor rather than a priest, he might have told
her that an _idée fixe_ is not the healthiest companion for a woman of
self-contained and secret nature, and that the previous generations of
March and Brakelond, feeble-minded or eccentric, held out a special
prospect of disaster when such an _idée fixe_ was cherished by herself.
However, by now, the time for warnings and advice was past. Gundred
was fully possessed by the mania that had arisen so naturally from
her devout habits and her weak mind, wrought on by jealousy and by a
tyrannous consciousness of being herself the chosen of Heaven. Now she
faced what she foresaw to be the punishment of her enemy, with the cold
calm of Jael. She was glad that Heaven had taken the affair so promptly
into its own hands.
Once before, her Celestial Ally, she remembered, had intervened by a
miracle to relieve her from the perilous presence of Isabel Darrell.
Now the same prodigy of favour was to be repeated in a different form,
and who was she to carp at the tender mercies of the Almighty? With
folded hands and placid heart she sat by to let matters take their
appointed way. Nothing in all the world would so utterly have horrified
her as the statement that she desired the death of Ivor Restormel. She
repeated to herself again and again that she wanted nothing of the
sort, but had perfect trust in the wisdom of the All-wise. She had no
desires of any kind; nothing but pure faith. And to wish for anyone’s
death, how very abominable and unchristian and unwomanly! Far, far from
her gentle mind was any such truculent passion; the utmost that she
would own to herself was that she would find it impossible to grieve
when Heaven had taken her enemy to its mercy. And, as for altering
the course of events, that was clearly out of the question. She could
only await what Heaven should send. She now forgot that she herself,
as it were, had given Heaven a nudge in the matter. She deliberately
disclaimed all responsibility, and plumed herself on the mildness and
resignation that her conduct showed. Stiff and calm in what by now was
nothing short of monomania, the unfortunate woman sat and smiled, as
her own damnation passed onwards to its accomplishment.
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