Kingston and Gundred began insensibly to enter on that period of
prosaic exploration which lies between the mystic raptures of the
first hours and the later harmonies of settled married life. The
day of blind passion seemed over. Gundred found herself commenting
inwardly on Kingston’s habits; the smell of tobacco was no longer so
precious to her as in the days when it stood for part of an enthralling
enigma; his ways were untidy, he dropped the newspapers on the floor
and never picked them up, he wrote his letters at odd times instead
of setting aside a definite hour for correspondence; he was never in
really good time for meals. And then he had mannerisms which, in the
dual solitude, began to prey upon his wife. He sometimes walked up
and down the room like a bear in a cage, until she wanted to scream;
when he sat quiet, he occasionally kept up a maddening succession of
little rhythmical taps with his feet; and, above all, he was given
to whistling. Then in mind, though altogether precious, of course,
and adorable, he had certain flaws. His religious views were clearly
lax, his moral attitude was not strenuous, he was too eager, too
inquisitive, for Gundred’s intelligence, which preferred to hold on
firmly, with the unswerving trust of the dutiful pupil, to everything
it had received at second-hand. She took life for granted, considered
the scheme of things very admirable, and her own position in it more
admirable still. Nothing was to be questioned. Therefore Kingston’s
habit, divined or expressed, of accepting nothing without examination,
made his wife feel worried and restless, as if her mind had mated with
an earthquake. Finally, as the days went by, Kingston dissatisfied her
inmost desires by gradually relaxing the amorous enthusiasm of their
first married days. It is usually the man who first wearies of conjugal
outbursts--men having other business in life, and women, under the
old primeval dispensation, none. And Gundred’s discontent was the more
exasperating that she was secretly ashamed of it, and had far too much
personal pride, far too strong a sense of decorum, to express it. As
Kingston grew less and less demonstrative in his affection, Gundred
revenged herself at once on him and on her own feelings by stiffening
herself into an added primness of factitious maidenhood, by which she
had the power of holding herself aloof from her nearest and dearest,
as well as of repelling that very sense of intimacy that her own most
secret soul desired. Her soul was of those that render themselves to no
subduing warmth of love, but, whatever the fate of the body, must be
violated, if possible, and taken by assault.
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