She laughed. “I’m an Englishwoman.”
“And so, you don’t want to know where I’m going?”
She moved aside. “Of course I do. I shall be in a fever till you come
back. But if I’m not to know—well—I’m not to know. It’s enough for me
that you’re serving your country. Tell me,” she said suddenly, catching
him by the coat lapels. “There’s no danger.”
He smiled. “Not a little tiny bit. Of that you can be assured. The worst
is a voyage to Helsingfors and back. So I gathered from the telegram,
which was in execrable Foreign Office Russian.”
“And when are you going?”
“By the first train. I must report to-night.”
“Can’t I come with you—as far as London?”
He considered for a moment. “No,” he said. “Where would you sleep? In
all probability I shall have to take the midnight boat to Havre.”
An hour later they parted. She returned to the empty house frightened at
she knew not what, insecure, terrifyingly alone; she was fretted by an
uncanny sense of having mated with the inhabitant of another planet who
had suddenly taken wing through the vast emptiness to the strange sphere
of his birth. She wandered up and down the veranda, in and out of the
three intimate rooms, where the traces of his late presence, books,
papers, clothes, lay strewn carelessly about. She smiled wanly,
reflecting that he wore his surroundings loosely as he did his clothes.
Suddenly she uttered a little feminine cry, as her glance fell on his
wrist watch lying on the drawing-room mantelpiece. He had forgotten it.
She took it up with the impulsive intention of posting it to him at
once. But the impulse fell into the nervelessness of death, when she
remembered that he had given her no address. She must await his
telegram—to-morrow, the next day, the day after, he could not say.
Meanwhile, he would be chafing at the lack of his watch. She worried
herself infinitely over the trifle, unconsciously finding relief in the
definite.
The weary hours till night passed by. She tried to read. She tried to
eat. She thought of going over the road to the Philimores’ for company;
but her mood forbade. For all their delicacy they would ask reasons for
this sudden abandonment. She magnified its importance. She could have
said: “My husband has gone to London on business.” But to her brain,
overwrought by sudden emotion, the commonplace excuse seemed inadequate.
She shrank from the society of her kind friends, who would regard this
interplanetary mystery as a matter of course.
If only Alexis had taken his watch! Perhaps he would have time to buy
another—a consoling thought. Meanwhile she strapped it on her own
wrist, heroically resolved not to part with it night or day until he
returned.
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