“I can’t sit here idle all my life—not here, at ‘The Towers,’” she
laughed, “for I’m not going to inflict myself on you for a lifetime—but
here, in the world.”
He had no practical suggestion to make; but he spoke from the sincerity
of his tradition.
“A woman like you fulfils her destiny by being her best self.”
“But being good is scarcely an occupation.”
He smiled. “I give it up, my dear. If you like, I can teach you
geology——”
She laughed. Geology had to do with dead things. She cared not a hang
for the past. She wanted to forget it. The epoch of the dynosaurus and
the period of the past year were, save for a few hundreds of centuries,
contemporaneous. No past, thank you. The present and the future for her.
The present was mere lotus-eating; delightful, but demoralising. It was
the future that mattered.
“If only you were an astrologer, and could bind me apprentice,” she
said. “No,” she added after a pause. “There’s nothing for it. I must do
something. I think I’ll go in for Infant Welfare and breed bull-dogs.”
She watched him as he laboriously stuffed his pipe with his one hand by
means of a little winch fixed to the refectory table and lit it by a
match struck on a heavy mat stand; refraining from helping him, although
all the woman in her longed to do so, for she knew his foibles. The very
first time he had entered the house, he had refused her offer of help
with his Burberry. He needed a woman to look after him; not a sister;
not a landlady-lodger friend; a wife, in fact, whose arm and hand he
would accept unquestionably, in lieu of his own. A great pity sprung in
her heart. Why had no woman claimed him—a man stainless in honour,
exquisite in thought, loyal of heart, and—not the least qualification
for the perfect gentle knight in a woman’s eyes—soldier-like in
bearing? There was something missing. That was all the answer she could
give herself. Something intangible. Something magnetic, possessed by the
liar and scamp who had been her husband. She could live with Blaise
Olifant for a hundred years in perfect amity, in perfect sympathy . . .
but with never a thrill.
She knew well enough the basis of sentiment underlying his friendship.
If she were free to marry, he would declare himself in his restrained
and dignified way. But with the barrier of the living Alexis between
them, she laughed at the possibility of such a declaration. And yet, her
inward laughter was tinged with bitterness. What kind of a man was it,
who, loving a woman, did not catch her round the waist and swing her on
his horse and ride away with her? Of course, she herself would have
something to say in the matter. She would fight tooth and nail. She
would fling the ravisher to Kingdom Come. But still her sex would have
the gratification of being madly desired.
In some such confused way, she thought; the horror of Mavenna, and the
romantic mastery of Alexis arising in comparison and contrast. To say
nothing of Bobby Quinton. . . .
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