She longed passionately to live with him, above herself. And yet, here
at the outset, was she living below herself. She would wake in the
morning and, sleepless, grow hot and clammy at the thought of her
deception. And the whole of her Medlow life drifted miserably through
her consciousness: the schoolgirl’s bitter resentment of the
supercilious nose in the air attitude of the passing crocodile of Blair
Park; of the vicar’s daughters’ condescending nod—he was a Canon of
somewhere and an “Honourable” to boot—at “that pretty Miss Gale”; her
recognition, when she came to years of sense, of the social gulf between
her family and the neighbouring gentry whose lives, with their tennis
parties and dances and social doings, seemed so desirable and so remote.
To bring her wonderful husband into that world of “homely folk,” the
excellent, but uncultivated Trivetts, the more important tradespeople,
the managers of the mills, the masters of the County School, her
father’s world, and to see him rigidly excluded from that to which her
mother and he himself belonged, was more than she could bear. She
tortured herself with the new problem of snobbery—rating herself, in
this respect, beneath Lydia, who was frankly cynical as to both her own
antecedents and her late husband’s social standing. But for the life of
her she could not bring herself to explain to Alexis the real
impossibility of Medlow. When she tried, she found that his foreign
upbringing failed to seize the fine shade of her suggestion.
His gay carelessness eventually lulled her conscience. As soon as
Olifant had done with “The Towers,” they could transfer the furniture to
whatever habitation they chose and let the house.
“I feel you couldn’t find it in your heart to sell the old place,” he
said. “Besides—who knows—one of these days——”
She thought him the most delicately perceptive of men.
“No, dear,” she said, her cheek against his. “I couldn’t sell it.”
Then all Medlow danger was over. She breathed freely. But still—the
little cloud of deceit hung over her serene mind and cast ever so tiny a
shadow over her rapturous life.
They had been four weeks in the deliciously sure uncertainty of “Quien
Sabe,” when, one noon while they were drying themselves in the hot sand
and sunshine of their tiny bay, after a swim, Myra came down gaunt
through the whin-covered hill-side with a telegram in her hand. With the
perversity of her non-recognition of the household paramountcy of her
master, she handed the envelope to Olivia. The name was just “Triona.”
Olivia was about to open it instinctively when Alexis started to a
sitting position, and, with an eager glance, held out his hand.
“I think it’s for me. I was expecting it. Do you mind?”
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