(though only as it were by proxy) for my genius, were my inducements to
persevere in my course—
Love only was my call,
And if I lost thy love, I lost my all.’
It was terrible to Margaret to read such words; they almost made her
feel as though she had been a confederate in the delinquencies of
this unhappy boy. Terrible, too, was the appearance, under dates, of
his particular acts of forgery, each set down in a matter-of-fact and
methodical manner, and concerning which the total absence of penitence
and self-reprobation was less painful to her than the fallacious
self-justification in which he had indulged elsewhere.
‘Nov. 2nd.—Love-letter and verses to Anne Hathaway. Five stanzas and
a braid of hair. Hair a _gage d’amour_ from a young playmate; the silk
that bound it had attached the seals to some old deed. It was thickly
woven and twisted in some peculiar manner, which I judged would suggest
antiquity.
‘Nov. 7th.—Playhouse receipts. String for them, some worsted thread
taken out of some old tapestry in the waiting-room of the House of
Lords, where I went to hear his Majesty’s speech with Mr. Erin.
‘Dec. 2nd.—The Profession of Faith. My most ambitious performance
(except the play). I solemnly affirm that but for the praises bestowed
upon my good fortune (as it was held) on the previous occasions, I
should have hesitated to compose this document. On the other hand,
you know, Margaret, how earnestly desirous Mr. Erin always was that
Shakespeare should be proved to have been a Protestant; if I could
please him in this I thought that my way to his heart would be made
easy indeed. Moreover, I had myself the most rooted objection to
anything like bigotry or superstition. In penning the Profession I
formed the twelve letters contained in the Christian and surname of
Shakespeare as much as possible to resemble those in his original
autographs, but as for the rest I was only careful to produce as many
doubleyous and esses as possible. It was a most simple performance,
and executed with so little prudence that (as you remember) the word
“leffee“ was introduced instead of “leafless.” Nor did I take much
more trouble with the composition itself. When, therefore, I heard Dr.
Warton pronounce such an eulogium upon it—”Sir, we have many fine
things in our Church Service, and our Litany abounds with beauties;
but here, sir, is a man who has distanced us all”—it is hardly to be
wondered at that I was intoxicated with so unexpected a success. It
corroborated very strongly the high estimation in which I had always
held my talents, and I resolved, since the world would not recognise
them in my proper person, to compel it to acknowledge them under
another name. If I was not so great as Shakespeare—and indeed I have
sometimes believed myself to be so—I had at all events a soul akin to
him.’
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