The edge had gone out of the play-boy’s voice and there was a faint
smile at the bottom of his eyes when he said: “But, according to the
way you stack things up, I am just as much of a false alarm as you are.
Heaven knows, I’ve waded fully as deep in the mud as you have in the
mire.”
“No; there is a difference. I know it now. Whatever you have done, you
have contrived somehow, in some way, to keep your soul out of the mud.
Flout the idea if you want to, but I know. I’ve lived with you for
something better than a year and know what I’m talking about.”
Another interval of silence, and at the end of it Bromley got upon his
feet.
“You are off?” said Philip, without looking up.
“Yes, I must go. I’m train-tired and perishing for a bath. You’re not
meaning to run away from Denver, are you?”
“Oh, no; I suppose not. There is nowhere to run to.”
At the door Bromley paused with his hand on the knob.
“Just one other word, Phil--and you may throw a chair at me if it bites
too hard: you’re no gambler. I mean you can’t hold your own against the
crooks and short-card men.”
“You are right. I have learned my lesson out of that book this early in
the game. Anything else?”
Bromley pointed to the half-empty bottle on the bookcase.
“That stuff is never much of a friend, and it is always a pretty bad
enemy. I wouldn’t trust it too far, if I were you. There is always a
morning after to follow the night before.”
“Yes; I have learned that, too. I am learning a good many things these
days. I guess I had it coming to me. Are you going? Well, good-night.”
After Bromley had gone, Philip heaved himself wearily out of the deep
chair and began to pace the floor with his head down and his hands
locked behind him. Two weeks of mad, unbridled rebellion against all
the inhibitions had left him weak and shattered in mind and body. Twice
in the circling round of the room he reached for the bottle on the
bookcase, and once he took it up and started to draw the cork. He knew
that a swallow or two of the liquor would steady the twittering nerves,
temporarily, at least; and that if he should drink enough of it, he
could go to bed and sleep.
But the good fighting strength which had been his up to that fatal
Monday evening a fortnight in the past, broken and spent though it was,
strove to make itself felt. Had it already come to this, that he could
no longer go to sleep without first drugging himself with whiskey? If
two short weeks of indulgence had thus far maimed and crippled him,
how long could he hope to delay the descent into the lowest gutter of
degradation?
“No, by God!” he exclaimed finally. “No more of it to-night--not if I
have to lie awake in hell till daylight!” And, such is the strength
derivable from even a partial resistance to temptation, he went to bed
and slept the clock around.
XX
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