“You are mistaken again,” was the mild dissent. “She proved to me, no
longer ago than last night, that she was capable of sacrificing herself
utterly to break my determination. I have come around to your point of
view, Harry. There is no poor wretch on earth too low down to answer
the appeal if one only knows how to make it. It has cost me pretty much
everything I value, or used to value, to learn this, but I have learned
it, at last.”
“But, good heavens--you can’t love this woman!”
“Who said anything about love? Don’t make another mistake, Harry; it
isn’t an infatuation. I am merely giving this girl a chance to become
what God intended her to be--a one-man woman; and the obligation this
will impose will keep me from sinking any deeper in the mud--or I hope
it may.”
For a fervid half-hour the play-boy argued and pleaded, all to no
purpose. It was quite in vain that, argument and persuasion failing, he
plied the whip, refusing to credit the altruistic motive, and accusing
Philip of making the final and fatal sacrifice to his own swollen ego;
not, indeed, that he believed this to be wholly true, but only that he
hoped there might be enough of the steel of truth in it to strike fire
upon the hard flint of Philip’s desperate resolution.
“If that is your motive--a monkish idea that by punishing yourself you
can wipe the slate of whatever things you’ve been writing on it since
you let yourself go--it’s a gross fallacy, Phil, and you know it. You
may fool yourself, but you can’t fool the God you still believe in.”
“You’ve got me all wrong, Harry,” was the placatory answer to this.
“I am still enough of a Christian to believe that there is only one
sacrifice for sin. That isn’t it at all. I’m not trying to atone; I am
merely trying to give another human being, to whose plane I have sunk
myself, a chance for the only redemption that can ever come to her--in
this life. I wish I could make you understand that I am not playing to
my own gallery--not consciously, at least. The ego you speak of is very
dead, these days. God knows, it needed to die. It wasn’t fit to live.”
It was in sheer desperation that Bromley fired his final shot.
“You told me once, Phil, that you had never said or done anything to
let Jean know that you were in love with her, or to win her love. That
was not true.”
“I don’t know what you mean.”
“I mean just this: that you did win her love, whether you meant to or
not.”
“I don’t believe it, Harry; but if it were true, it applied only to the
Philip Trask she knew--or thought she knew--and not at all to the man
who is going to marry Mona Connaghey. Surely you can see that?”
“I can see that you don’t yet know any more about women than a new-born
baby!” was the fierce retort. “I have been living in the same house
with Jean Dabney all summer, and----”
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