“I can never look at it without being made to feel my own, and all
human, littleness,” he said. “And, after all, tremendous as it is, this
is only a dot, a vanishing point, in a universe too vast to be even
faintly comprehended by our little insect minds.”
She stole a glance aside at him. Lean, wind-tanned, athletic, with
work-hardened hands and knotted muscles, there was little to remind
her of the neatly groomed, reserved young railroad clerk who had sat
beside her in the Kansas Pacific day-coach two years earlier; the “damn
Yankee” she had told him she had been taught to call him and his kind.
Even his speech was different now.
“This is a country of big things--this Colorado of ours,” he went on,
“and we little human insects have to grow and expand to fit it--do
that, or be blotted out and lost in the shuffle. Doesn’t it make you
feel that way?”
She nodded. Though she was far from realizing it, or had been, up to
this moment, her two years of burden-carrying in Denver had changed
her quite as much as his varied experiences and the breaking down of
the barriers had changed him. Then, with a smile: “We were terrible
tenderfoots two years ago, weren’t we?”
“It was a country of tenderfoots then; it still is, in a great measure.
What a world of meaning there is crammed into that one coined word!
We call this a new country; in reality, it is old--very old and
wise and shrewdly discriminating. It sifts the grain from the chaff
without mercy; and equally without mercy the chaff is scattered to the
four winds. We are the new things; we who call ourselves the lords
of creation! Most of us were mere babes in the wood when we came
here--tenderfoots in all that the word implies. At least, I am sure I
was. You were different.”
“Not so very different,” she disagreed. “I remember how sneery and
unmannerly I was the day we met on the train ... how I made fun of
the ‘Philips,’ and told you you’d never go to the mountains. I don’t
believe you ever quite forgave me for that.”
“The Philip you knew then was quite capable of holding it against you,”
he admitted, with a reminiscent smile. “In fact, if I remember right,
I believe he did cherish some boyish notion of showing you, some time,
how completely mistaken you were; how far superior he was to your
prejudiced opinion of him.”
She looked around at him with a flash of the old-time mockery in her
eyes.
“Does he feel that way now?” she asked.
“Ah!” he returned quickly, “I think you know very well how he feels
now. Harry has told you everything there was to tell, hasn’t he?”
She made the sign of assent, adding: “But only as a loyal friend, you
may be sure.”
“Of course. Harry is incapable of disloyalty. What I am afraid of is
that he was too loyal; that he hasn’t stood the thing upon its rightful
feet. It wasn’t the finding of my father as--well, as I did find him,
that smashed me, Jean.”
“What was it, then?”
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