It was a strange thing that he did not, even as a passing obsession,
think of terminating the dreary pilgrimage of life then and there. At
Bison, during the first stupor of grief after his mother's death and
Nancy's desertion, he had pondered, many a time, the awful problem which
ever presents itself to men of strong will and resolute purpose. When
life appears to be no longer worth living the question arises--why not
end it? But seven years of lonely musing had given depth and solidity to
his nature. Above all, he had been taught to endure. He had come now to
a worse pass than any that pierced the Andes; for an unending desert lay
in front, while he was leaving a fair territory in which lay domestic
joys and a love for which his soul hungered. In the moment when union
with Marguerite Sinclair was forbidden so sternly he gaged with woeful
accuracy the extent of his longing for her companionship. He understood,
with a certainty of judgment that brooked no counter argument, that he
could never marry. He dared not. If that which Nancy had said was true,
he would surely kill himself in a paroxysm of loathing and
self-accusation when any other woman's kiss was still hot on his lips.
There remained a task not to be shirked--he must ascertain, beyond
doubt, that Nancy was really dead. Gathering the four letters in whose
yellowing sheets was summarized the whole story of his wasted life, he
placed them in a pocketbook. In doing so, he happened to touch the case
containing the ring he had bought for Meg. Oddly enough, that simple
incident cost him the sharpest pang; but he conquered his emotions, much
as a man might do who was facing unavoidable death, and even forced his
trembling fingers to put the envelop which held Nancy's white heather
side by side with Marguerite's diamonds. Then he went out.
An oldtime acquaintance in Denver with the ways of journalism led him to
the nearest newspaper office. There he asked to be taken to the news
editor's room, and a busy man looked at him curiously when he explained
that he wanted to know whether or not Mrs. Marten, wife of Hugh Marten,
was living, and, if dead, the date of her demise.
There was something in Power's manner that puzzled the journalist, some
hint of tragedy and immeasurable loss, but he was courteously explicit.
"You mean Hugh Marten, the financier, formerly of Colorado?" he
inquired.
"Yes, that is the man."
The other took a volume from a shelf of biographies, by which is meant
the newspaper variety--typed accounts of notable people still living,
together with newspaper cuttings referring to recent events in their
careers. Soon he had a pencil on an entry.
"Yes," he said. "Mrs. Marten has been dead nearly seven years."
"And her child? Is the child living?"
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