And Toppan knew that she would succeed. He knew that in his present
mood he would make any sacrifice for her sake. He foresaw that her
appeal would be too strong for him. That was, if he opened and read her
letter. Just now the question was, should he do it? If he read that
letter he knew that he was lost, his career would stop where it was. To
be great he had only to throw it unopened into the fire; yes, but to be
great without her, was it worth the while? What would fame and honour
and greatness be, without her? He realised that the time had come to
choose between her and his career and that it all depended upon the
opening of her letter. Two hours later, he flung himself down before
his table and took her letter in his hand. His fingers itched for the
touch of it. Close to his elbow lay a little copper knife with poison
grooves, such as are used by the Hill-tribes in the Kuen-Lun mountains.
Toppan kept it for a paper cutter; just now he picked it up. For a long
time he remained sitting, holding Victoria’s letter in one hand, the
little knife in the other. Then he put the point under the flap of the
envelope and slowly cut it open.
Two weeks later the Kamtchatka Expedition sailed with Bushby in command.
Toppan did not go; he was married to Victoria Boyden that Fall.
Last season I met Toppan at Coronado Beach. The world has about
forgotten him now, but he is quite content as he is. He is head clerk
in old Mr. Boyden’s insurance office and he plays a capital game of
tennis.
_*A Caged Lion*_
In front of the entrance a "spieler" stood on a starch-box and beat upon
a piece of tin with a stick, and we weakly succumbed to his frenzied
appeals and went inside. We did this, I am sure, partly to please the
"spieler," who would have been dreadfully disappointed if we had not
done so, but partly, too, to please Toppan, who was always interested in
the great beasts and liked to watch them.
It is possible that you may remember Toppan as the man who married
Victoria Boyden, and, in so doing, thrust his greatness from him and
became a bank clerk instead of an explorer. After he married, he came
to be quite ashamed of what he had done in Thibet and Africa and other
unknown corners of the earth, and, after a while, very seldom spoke of
that part of his life at all; or, when he did, it was only to allude to
it as a passing boyish fancy, altogether foolish and silly, like
calf-love and early attempts at poetry.
"I used to think I was going to set the world on fire at one time," he
said once; "I suppose every young fellow has some such ideas. I only
made an ass of myself, and I’m glad I’m well out of it. Victoria saved
me from that."
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